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Thursday, June 28, 2007

10:40

long time been so down like today.. and also duno why will come here and write my 2nd post within a day.. think i really no one to share my emotion.. hehe.. come here at least can let some of my emo go.. but cant say everything ba.. coz blog is not diary.. still must have privacy.. lolz.. anyway also duno why so down.. perhaps been thinking alot toward something.. and it feel like trapping inside a maze.. cant figure out things..

if you have notice.. my msn currently is " I'm in E middle of the junction againz " wat is this junction about.. think only some of you will know ba.. but the first thing ppl tend to come to mind is love ar.. relationship kind of thing.. to be frank.. is something to do with it.. but kind of bother by myself too.. think i should really no point in thinking so much.. actually e more important thing is i jus worried that i will knock down in the junction.. haha.. so i must really wait for the green light~~ and walk safely..but as we know.. junction will lead to alot of exits... will it be e right path for me?? i don't know~~ but i rather wait and wait.. or rather dun move also cant risk to be walk to the wrong direction or get injured by dashing... so let jus wait for answer by god ba.. sometime i really believe the one in the sky got the final said.. one of my friend keep telling me "do something , do something!!" before today i will say i am doing~~ but after writing this post.. i think doing wat things also useless~~ because claps need both hands.. i really very restless~~ sorry that i cant continue.. i shall had an early night and let the nature take place ba~~

ZhiHao.

01:13

Thursday, sunny

today wake up le, so boring... but wana chiong the drama i currently watching.. called "Heart of Greed". is a hong kong drama and i can gave 2 thumbs up!! i especially like the part of a love story... i start to understand to love someone is really dont need any status.. jus be a guardian angel.. seeing e one u love happy is enough le.. but say is always easier than done.. can i be a guardian angel who so selfless..

watch half way then recieve a news from my friend.. duno should i say is a good news not.. but i should be happy for my friend.. she found a job le.. and don't need to always rot and bored at home.. but once she works le i think will be quite busy le ba.. erm.. anyway should be happy for her.. hope she doing well ba=)

ZhiHao.

22:24

25/06/07

Is a Day i will be remember in the year 2007... because i finally understand the true meaning of 人包铁... being a future rider myself.. i kinda worried my life is really very dangerous.. but luckily... the minor accident of mine is happen during the learning process..
Although is a minor one.. but the very second when i going to skid with my bike.. my mind is blank and i really really SCARE... is a scariest thing other than young time sit on roller coaster.. because you duno wat will happen.. and how to land safely.. and actually you don't have time to think.. the next second i know wat happen.. is already lying on e floor.. bike falling on my leg.. and my shoulder bleeding.. and this will be a scar to remind me to becareful in my remaining life.. someone told me that a guy which some scares look MAN.. and i feel to be MAN or being safe in my whole life.. i will choose safe.. this time round i should be counted lucky to be in an accident in the circuit.. if "choy", i happen to have the same accident.. skid from a wet road when i ride on expressway or even the normal road??? wat will be the ending.. there no one help me.. and probably a car behind cant stop in time and crush into you.. we all knows these happens.. everyday.. just that who is unlucky spotted by the death God.. is really a scary experience.. and i really pray hard this will be my first and last time i occur an accident..

erm.. wat it meant to be a Double "S'... the first one is a Scary day right.. the 2nd "S" shall be a sweet day.. lolz.. anyway i shall thank someone who help me change my dressing which i think is really a sweet thing.. jus hope i nv bored her day.. by talking lot.. hehe.. i jus enjoy chatting=)) and got to thanx another person.. Mich.. you ar.. sometime very di siao.. but anyway nxt time shall be my treat.. thou e food there so-so.. but can dine in a scenery with 2 pretty girls.. is another sweet thing too.. hehe.. i shall say till here.. if not later others will come and ask me alot of question againz.. =(

p.s: jus to remind a 19 yr old gal shld not nag too much.. lolz.. jus kidding.. but i appreciate it alot.. haha.. and i think you got e potential to work as a nurse.. not your skill but ur smile... think e patient handled by you will feel very xin fu ba.. hehe..

ZhiHao.

06:43

Wednesday le.. 5 more days will be my school reopen.. haiz.. hate to go back school.. but do i have a choice?? hehe.. anyway this few days down make my mood turn better.. firstly went to KL for a short trip=) then today my friend PASSED HER TP... lolz.. so happy for her.. thou she only "just" manage to pass with 18 points.. haha.. she was so so lucky.. but blessing she make it!! Congrat!! hehe.. I told her is the power of the Crane.. the crane give her all the luck she needed and she pass 2 obstacles in 4 days.. Salute~~~ seeing her so happy and the smile from her... lolz.. is it to get your very own license really so wonderful?? motivation for me too.. can i make it too?? think i also must fold one crane when i go for my TP.. but still days for it to happen.. and all the drivers and riders out on e road.. my friend really a very sotong blur queen.. next time when she on the road better watch out.. lolz.. jus kidding=)) anyway hope she will be on her mood again and don't feel so down le.. because she has so many friends around her and there will not be an ending for her for any circumstances.. smile k=))

back to my KL trip.. this trip i like figure out something but don't really know figure out wat?? blur right.. lolz.. me too.. but this trip quite wonderful.. very budget one but i buy some nice clothes and a pair of jeans.. hehe.. sianZ.. still haven go to KLCC and the Eyes on malaysia.. haiz.. think not fated to go yet ba.. nxt time.. nxt time i sure go.. and hope beside me got a lovely girl accompany me le.. hehe.. enjoying and relaxing trip with my bro, sis and a good friend... think my friend had nothing to complain beside eating too much.. haha.. any friends who wana go KL can ask me along.. free accomadation and can eat alot of nice foods.. haha.. looking foward to go in but not so soon.. hope december or nxt chinese new yr can go in.. so many relative there cant visit all this time.. sorry about it hope nxt time go in can try to..

and ya.. beside e above mention.. i was back to cantonese pop trends le.. thanx to my friend.. who intro me 自欺欺人, and i really like it.. then searching other like 好好恋爱, 十分爱, 耿耿于怀 and etc.. and listen to music is not really jus about listening.. u must know wat it singing about.. for e above mention song.. all are quite sad.. and eventually make me emo.. especially 自欺欺人.. really make me think alot of thing about relationship.. not past one.. but future.. really don't hope that rs will turn sour and one day will like wat e song sing.. is damn SAD... and really think canto pop is the best.. beside the music is so nice.. the story of the song is better.. R&B.. i gona say bye bye le.. hehe.. listening to canto songs beside making me emo also make me think back of the ZH i used to be.. i really change alot.. and is to the worse.. hate myself sometime.. and really lost the one i used to know.. where is he.. lolz.. we tends to blame this and that.. but ask urself a simple question.. is it because u never learn from ur mistakes?? if someone ask me this.. i will put up my both hands and say yes... i NEVER... but i like to find ZH back..

just hope my mood will get better and better.. gambate!! wish everyone happily living his/her life and smile from everyone..=))

ZhiHao.

10:21

first of all.. is the song nice??? the version i listen at first is a Cantonese version... maybe i am a cantonese that why i still prefer the canto version but for the sake of you i post the english version... i like this song rythem alot.. but e story of e song nv really happen to me before.. is about those god bro and god sis love and relationship thing.. i refering to the cantonese version i mean.. anyway if u all wana know why i like the canto version can ask from me.. good thing is meant to share.. lolz.. after listen to the song... getting bit emo againz... but not moody.. my mood is good.. and think of wana to get a restart=) feel my life been dead.. why life is dead.. coz no aim.. no friends.. no life.. haha.. i am not exaggerating.. nowadays after work and school i head home.. and doing nothing.. but yesterdae after work.. went to ate with my colleague.. and after that we went to starbuck to chit chatting.. is so nice.. and i think friends are really important in life.. and got to know a new one.. haha.. sometime really think am i anti social??? i dun think so.. coz my impression to other shld be friendly ba.. haha.. anyway hope my life is like my computer.. when i click to restart.. i can get a restart in life and do everything againz.. my aim now is to complete my poly and get my bike license and get to let me know a nice galz.. ops.. sorry.. for e above is short term target ba.. then as for friends.. haiz.. my buddies are so so busy.. think must open my circle of friends le.. to get around with more ppl but think i gona kick out e habit of clubbing le.. coz i feel gal who dun club is sweeter.. haha... and for life.. to get myself occupied is important..

anyway now going to 2am and i so tired~~ think i go sleep le.. will come back in short time=)

ZhiHao.

11:39

ahhhh~~~ jialat... paid day come but i cant find smile on my face.... first of all.. this month no tuiton income=( and prev blog rem?? i plan to buy a bike.. that why everything must start to save and save le.. entertainment must cut down on it.. e.g dont say clubbing le.. coz confirm will stop clubbing for sometime... entertainment like movies, dinner and outing will cut down... or maybe completely shut myself at home... so i think i will miss someone out of my life le.. and nowadays like nv really contact with her... sobz.. =( haiz.. SEE... to achieve something... will tend to sacrifice something too.. nothing is perfect in this world... but dunwan say goodbye to her... duno she know who is she not.. lolz.. anyway i got an answer for my prev blog le.. after much consideration and thoughts.. i finally decided on my future ride will be phantom!! haha.. thou i like sport bike.. but maintainence is a problem.. and the pillion also limit to ladies as the pillion seat is so small.. haha.. i like the speed of SP, KR... but most important is $$... i going NS soon.. so i cant keep paying for a bike i got to keep maintain = pay $$$... so phantom is a better option.. hope my 2A license will be a sport bike ba.. anyway end of it.. my life is just getting boring and boring.. who shall come across it and lead me to rainbow=)))

ZhiHao.