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Sunday, September 23, 2007

23:22

first of all.. thanks ice.. erm.. for giving me a hard knock on my head.. i mean what for consider so much when u love someone.. yeah.. my impression of being a playboy once again is up becoz after a 9 months singlehood life.. i once again declare myself attached.. lolz.. and sorry to say i not a playboy.. maybe in e past i am.. but i wont be one for my special lady... everything is smooth and simple.. but maybe is just the beginning.. but i know she kind of different.. at least i know she wont be a demanding gf.. and she not those who be easily mood swing and easy hot tempered one.. ops.. sometime things cant say tt early hor.. hehe.. but i got confident..=)) yupz.. how our story start.. actually can say our relation can start as far as secondary school.. but till now then we know we fond in each other.. hehe.. anyway now not too late.. i always ask her.. if at that time we are together do u think is good?? will we now still together?? but i think e result and ending should be not tt good.. coz last time i not sensible enough.. kind of childish.. and not stable enough.. so e chance of hurting u confirm is high.. but anyway i think now together.. i promise i already a changed person.. and i hope to have a stablelised relationship.. and i will kick all e bad habits.. becoz i am not playing this time.. =) whoever reading this blog please be my witness and give me your blessing okie.. thanks.. if find me in some trouble.. please remind me to be a good boyfriend i promised.. for my part.. i will discipline hard to myself.. and yeah.. my Dear~~ keep that sms i send.. is with law bidding one.. so if u feel i treat u no good show it to me okie.. hehe..

erm.. wat to write about her ar.. eh.. actually there really too much to write about.. far too much.. but i will summarise some interested stuff... ops.. my mid-autumn festival is not alone~~ hehe.. thank to her.. we had a great night at west coast park.. this time.. e shore is ready.. and we spend a romantic and sweet night at e shore.. lie side by side.. and we have such a great evening.. before that we climb to e tallest point at west coast.. yeah.. she did it.. haha.. no phobia to height one.. that my girl!! haha.. then we play flying fox.. nope.. she play only.. too many kids around.. i too embarrased to play on it.. haha.. after having a long chat at e shore.. she took bus home.. sorry wor.. cant send u home.. but this is e only time i never send u home.. frankly speaking.. to all couples.. having a girlfriend living near to u is important.. not say tt far no good.. but.. anyway guys should know wat i talking about.. but i will try to send u home whenever i can okie.. i wont like last time like this again.. ops.. then today.. thursday.. i have a crazy night.. should say both of us.. i leave e school earlier.. and go tuition earlier.. after that i gave my gf a suprise.. i went to her hse and she still thought i having tuition.. hehe.. then i ask her accompany me go have dinner.. then reach vivo and i say wana movie.. coz is like so last minute.. i thought she dunwan as is 8 plus le.. but she say okie lo.. very sudden also a funny thing to do.. haha.. yeah.. we watched invasion.. not a bad movie.. jus ending like not tt good enough.. then after e movie.. i walk her home.. but neither of us wana go home yet.. jus miss each other so much.. then we go to telok blangah hill.. ops.. romantic wor.. my first time there.. hehe.. we have some talks there.. and after hours we go back and i dunwan her to go home yet.. so i bring her for supper at river valley.. for supper.. hehe.. finally 3 am le.. we spend 8 hours jus like this.. omg.. so fast.. times fly ma.. hehe.. but i really very happy.. think i nv make a wrong choice this time.. i take a very long time to consider.. and i know she is e right one this time.. i quite sure about this.. becoz i think i change.. for those who doubts me.. erm.. is okie.. i will prove u all wrong.. maybe i think only you.. not others.. coz my friends will bless me for sure.. and know i changed.. sorry for the last sentence.. i know is very mushy.. but i still wana say to my sweetheart~~ ( i will update e song and pics one.. too tired le)

Monsieur te'amo = Dear I LOVE YOU=)

ZhiHao.

10:31

do u guys remember in my previous posts.. i mention about isit being in a relationship is happier??? erm.. seriously.. e question haunt back.. erm.. i think i got a phobia is getting into a relationship.. and seriously i know i am a bad boyfriend... sorry to my ex-girlfriends.. especially "you".. know you got a special day.. happy for ya~~ thou i know i am a blacklisted in ur heart... okie.. back to it.. now facing e special one.. i duno where am i standing at.. i am scared by e ugliest side of a relationship... wat seem to be beautiful.. but after an "officially" status.. everything seem to change..

back to it.. erm.. currently very busy.. i think all of you also busy ba.. study work study work... haiz.. so siAnz right.. but i manage to get "one" day off a week.. i find this day to go relax.. like this week.. erm.. sat pon work.. then evening go to east coast park.. erm.. e night was great.. long time nv get to there.. real long time.. haiz.. anyway yupz get to a beach restaurant.. and i find the ambience was great.. nice music.. nice good.. and is a candlelight dining enviroment.. after that went for a walk on e beach.. then sit down there for some fun and crazy converstation.. lolz.. too bad.. no license and bike yet.. if not can stay longer.. anyway head home after that.. =)

yupz.. in e end.. another silent night.. i nv break it out.. and i duno if i should... why.. why whenever i make decision over something like this.. "your" shadow is back into me.. when i keep writing this blog.. i was seeing pictures of "you".. memories and memories.. i find it e fact is u not a bad gf.. jus tt both of us really not suitable towards each other.. anyway i really hope someone can guide me out of this.. troubled night..

anyway mid-autumn festival is coming le.. rem last year.. having a great day.. think this year i will be alone~~ anyway show you all my masterpiece.. hehe=)

ZhiHao.

09:56

yoz.. today i can forecast ROM shld having some crowd down there to register ba.. why? becoz it is 09-09.. yupz.. 9 stand for long lasting wor.. 2 years later.. 09-09-09.. think full man!! think i cant by then go ROM coz still young and poor.. hehe.. anyway today quite nice wor.. coz went to dinner with sze li and his gf - xiao jun.. and my date.. haha.. like double date.. but is like lacking smthing.. think becoz jus my date.. not my gf.. ops.. but i like to dine in pairs.. hope E4 shld behave like this.. bring along our dates.. u see.. we have plently to chat abt.. and this is fun.. anyway we having a long conversation about market and shares.. as i planning to enter it.. haha.. jus learn something only.. so involving little risk i hope.. then send her home.. and she really a spy lo.. keep doing things i duno.. Argh!!!

ya.. back home and read someone blog.. ops.. think i am not welcome~~~ but few more days is her bday le.. here i shall using my blog to wish her HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY~~ and seeing her doing well.. yupz.. wish her happy ever after~~... anyway thou she writing some negative things against me.. but i shall not do e same.. coz i know i am a jerk.. i admit it!! yupz.. anyway since u doing so good.. i shall not blocking ur ways.. and from now on i will never mention u again.. just treat it i never know u ba.. i know u doing e same thing.. =).. takE CarE..

haiz.. tml going sch again.. so Sianz.. but still must go..gambate nei.. i will strive hard tml!! sure i need to do something.. anyway tml got a napfa training course for me.. good good.. i can train.. lolz.... build myself up.. using this opportunity=)

yepz.. sze finally going in.. one more week of rest.. hope he doing well.. as for me.. half a year to go.. damn it.. but hope i can acheive wat i wan!! PILOT~~~ i will strive for it.. and hope school and attachment faster go thru!!

ps: haiz.. overall is not my day~~ becoz i am bit disappointed.. dun ask me why.. you know=(

ZhiHao.

23:34

yesterday i pon my school.. thou i wake up very early( wake up at 7 ).. hehe.. but jus dun feel like going.. then i come across a jap drama in crunchyroll.. and this is a show that can make u laugh and cry.. and bring up all my memories.. is GREAT TEACHER ONIZUKA!!! (GTO). I really like this drama lot.. and i learn things from it.. when u wana do something u wan to, dun care about e consequences as it might hinder you; love is not about comparing, love is because feeling; and most important is live everyday up!! and ENJOY when u r youngs... i never regret of playing that much during my secondary life.. and is my best times in my life ( till now).. yeapz.. if you guys wana watch this classic drama again can go to www.crunchyroll.com to register as a member for FREE and search for GTO... real nice!! yupz.. then i watch 12 episode all and i duno i use how many pieces of tissue le.. almost every episode i cried.. but u will understand when u watched it!! after watching it, hope from it i can get some motivation to be happier.. jus like GTO!!

P.s : Will try to change e song with every Post.. will find something nice to match my posting.. like today.. Poison from the dRama!! hehehe EnjoyED~~

around 8, my bro ask me go for a game of basketball.. since nothing much to do.. i join him.. and yes.. luckily i went.. is so fun playing again.. thou i bit rusty le.. but enjoyed those interaction with young lads.. haiz.. seeing them make myself feel " am i old le?? " they are 15 and 16.. memories of secondary days come back.. haha.. and they have good skills.. and of coz got e look.. think they are superstar in their respective school.. hehe.. like me.. ops.. kidding here.. anyway after e game.. went for some chit chat session with them.. and shocked me.. is the world changing that fast.. "there is no such thing call virgin in secondary school" although is bit exaggerating.. but i believe that more and more students during sec school lost it.. i am not against pre-maritial sex.. but isnt it too fast?? and somemore they say is the gal who initiate it.. my god!!! duno shld laugh or cry.. but i think down e road.. when u getting married.. maybe ur wife alr been having a 10-20 guys in her life.. sAd thing right.. but their answer is "Who CArES".. haha.. jus like my topic.. Enjoying their young Days~~

ZhiHao.

08:43

yoz.. yesterdae went over to Sze house for his birthday bash~~~ and a house warming party too as he jus moved his new home.. erm.. went into e room jus feel he has a nice room.. i wish i had one too.. a bed.. and photo of loves one all over the wall~~ and he got a damn romantic corner in e room.. how romantic it is.. erm.. i shall not reveal.. coz i will get one too.. then can have some lovely moment with my loves one.. hehe.. ermZzz... yeah.. then after the buffet dinner at his house.. night E4 went to night activity again.. we went to Geylang.. hehe.. long time nv eat the dou jiang you tian.. thou is not very nice.. but is e ambience and memories that keeps us going.. hehe.. anyway after the tok cock supper.. we went to see the infamous sight of singapore "color" industry.. erm.. jus see only... dun mistake okie.. then we walk into those dark alley to explore the singapore mini IR.. haha.. inside got gambling den.. but of so many tables there.. all is the same game.. Sze and i try our lucks by sharing 10 bucks and we actually won.. haha.. treat it as free supper.. hehe.. then after e geylang trip we got a special guest on our car.. and i think this special guest give all of us especially ah hock a very bad impression le.. erm.. if hock ar. u see this post.. i duno u will happy not.. but frankly speaking.. for me.. i think she not e right one.. not abt e nationality wise.. is abt character and e way she behave.. i kind of fan gan wor.. hope u dun mind i say this.. but i think u deserve someone better.. erm.. yupz.. after pick this special guest.. we went over east coast and play pool.. and of coz.. my skill is getting better and better.. ops.. jus kidding.. but i really enjoy playing pool so much.. went home after that.. damn tired.. and wake up at 11 for my bike lesson.. erm.. dunwan to talk much abt my bike thingy.. fed up.. and i really so siAnz.. sorry for all.. i think i cant get e license as a birthday gift for myself le.. so i think i will take it slowly then.. really so disappointed.. then after that went home for some rest for a dinner date.. hehe=) but this hehe really abit mian qiang.. not becoz of e person i meet.. coz of myself.. bit tired.. and bit emo.. think my emo up again.. and why my emo come le.. coz e ride home in sze car.. the FM play this song... 我是真的真的很爱你 by jerry yen.. this is one of my fav song.. erm.. wat this song really mean.. to me.. erm.. i duno who shld i think when i listen to this song.. e ones i hurt.. e ones hurt me?? in e end i think of few.. haha.. and it make my think whole day~~.. before meeting her for dinner.. i dl some of e jerry song.. and hehe.. i like this song so much too.. 地心引力 (gravity) is a very relax and happy song.. this make my emo up and i feel so light after this song.. unlike " I truly love you" emo =).. anyway when meeting her.. i also kind of quiet in e first place.. i feel bit weird.. duno why.. but break e lock by talking lot again.. dunwan e ambience so weirdo.. sorry.. think today is not my day~~ anyway we have a nice dinner in TCC and thank for listening so much to me.. hehe.. after e conversation.. got a bad impression over me le right.. still got time for u to regret.. haha.. but e whole night.. kind of suprised is i know u actually so soft hearted.. is not a bad thing but i mean erm.. u actually break and patch.. yupz.. really silly~~ i mean if for someone deserved still alright.. but ----> him?? erZZzz.. no comment le.. yeapz.. this fact stun me.. and i kind of behave so diff but after e long walk to ur hse.. i nv think much.. but reach home i think again.. haha.. too bad u cant online.. but anyway is past.. jus take it as a lesson ba=) erm.. really enjoyed walking u home.. e distance not long not short.. jus nice.. enough to have some funny talks.. =) okie le.. tml onwards i will be schooling le.. jia you for me~~

ZhiHao.