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2009 ---- an unforgettable YEAR~~

2009-12-18T22:14:00.000-08:00

wow.. so fast.. is really fast for this year to end it in this style... haiz... DEC... festival mood.. but i have a little heavy feeling.. lucky someone is always there for me to support me... this year --- 2009, really a very special year for me.. is a whole full year which i am a NSF... and i gone thru a lot of stuffs.. some i never experience before.. some make me happy... make me go crazy.. make me heartwarming... make me cry like mad.. and it make the year of 2009 for me.. this year really extraordinary for me.. like me make a quick recap for it.. to mark a full stop and hope nxt yr.. is a new beginning...

starting of the year.. posted to SISPEC... a fresh start for me.. and continue my trainee life.. as a trainee in sispec.. i enjoyed most of my time.. thou e training is quite tough.. but to listen to order and fight.. and learn new stuff.. new weapon.. is really an experience for me.. and i got to see some of my mates leave for different vocation training as i remain as an infantry soldier... but to stay in ASLC... make me tougher.. and i got e chance of going to thailand for overseas training.. 3 weeks of the year is long enough that i dunwan to go for another overseas exercise.. haha.. becoz i got to leave my gf in sg who i miss e most... and i missed my mum bday this yr... but thailand really a fun experience overall.. the weather u will nv forget.. e food and the navigation exercise.. and the ninja van... lolz.. all the little things.. and it end my trainee life as i passed out after 5 months plus of unforgettable training in SISPEC...

on and off.. my gf, Xenia always there by my side.. whenever i got off.. or free... i will wan to find her.. but soon after i realise e gap btwn me and my friends is getting longer.. and luckily they nv forget me.. Alson and YJ keep pestering me after i passed out as a 3sg and keep asking me out.. and tt e time things happen..

i start to enjoy e time being out there with my friends.. be it talk cock session, dinner, lan or whatsoever.. i start feel that e time with xenia is not tt sweet anymore.. i think most of e couple do experience e same things.. and i shouldn't treat her like this.. but i am sorry... and because i was posted to this special unit.. everyday go to the ranges.. i was so sick.. and once i not working.. i so wana go out and find my friends.. and slowly.. i miss clubbing.. and e dark side of me ----> party animal, come to haunt me again.. i do admit i am someone who like to party, drink and dance... jus to have e fun all night long.. but i shouldn't hurt anyone when i do all these..

days ago... someone keep comment i am a bastard, player.. someone who play with ppl feeling.. ok... i deserve e scolding.. i know how mad u r.. to let u guys understand and to mark my yr with all the truth i shall include this too in this post.. becoz this make part of my yr 2009...

i think i deserve all the scoldings and swearing from those who hate me.. becoz i hate myself too.. for being this zH i dun even know who e hell he is... i admit i changed alot.. since i left secondary school... my principle all changed partly due to how i adapt to the "world" i live in... and i been to alot.. i thought this yr.. i will change back to the zH used to be in secondary school.. but obviously i am not.. i still cant bear to leave the nightlife and party lifestyle.. i used to joke with the gals.. "party is in our blood".. and i do enjoy the drinks and dance.. but no matter how crazy the night is... i will have some self control.. but i duno why 2009 is a year i cross my line... and this line is so dangerous yet i dare to cross it.. i admit in e first place... i thinking of jus having fun... is not about playing.. i really dun play with relationship.. becoz i cant.. i know a gal.. "E" during one of my usual club night... e first night is none other than a gal who can dance so well with me... i think nothing other than this... but i know deep down.. if i continue seeing her.. something will happen... but i try nothing to stop it.. becoz like i said.. i thinking of having some fun... but already is a mistake.. becoz i am endanger my RS.. but i have to admit.. e rs also having some problem.. of coz this is not an excuse to do all these.. i know.. but.. i tink everything jus fated..

I club everyweeknd.. and sometime mayeb club twice a week... and slowly... i really fall in love with "E".. i know i hurting my gf... but i really cant control.. i know i shouldn't continue it.. but i duno how to handle it.. becoz i dun wana let go... so many things happen in 2 months.. since e day i know "E".. i gave so many empty promises.. both to "E" and gf.. haiz.. i really duno what e hell i am doing.. i hurt both of them.. call me a bastard if u all want.. becoz i think i am one..

now i really so insecure when i am alone.. i need accompany.. becoz i will tink of "E".. need to get over it fast.. haiz.. listen to songs especially songs i had danced with her before.. will make me tink of things happened.. scary.. i near future.. dun dare to club le... dun dare to cross e line again.. becoz the feeling of hurting and being hurt is really pain.. pain till i can rem for my life.. and 2009 will be a year i rem...

obviously this is year.. is like a roller coaster ride for me.. so many things happen.... like i said.. fun, tears, excitment, pain...
Sispec training... 2 years anniversaries with Xenia.. "E" come into my life... are the things complete my 2009 and will be things which will follow me for e rest of my life..

2009 is ending soon.. few more days will be christmas day... wish all of u "MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY NEW YEAR"... and really hope 2010 is a year with only happiness...

dear dear bday=)

2009-12-04T11:48:00.000-08:00

yesterdae my gf xenia bday... her bday party will be tml sat... so yesterdae we jus had a simple celebration... went for a movie and a steamboat dinner.... will compensate a nice one to her de.. sorry dear... like too simple le.. actually wana have a pinic with a camping tent one.. but problem is keep raining.. and force to cancel it.. haiz.. anyway like she say de.. 2 persons can be together celebrating.. everything doesn't matter right..

ninja assassin... wow.. Rain bod is hot!!! very nice e movie... hollywood standard for an asian star... nice.. and e story not bad... hehe... anyway DEC is flood with nice movies... going to catch more movies.. haha=)

steamboat at vivo city.. erm.. not very nice... so so lo... but okie le.. everytime steamboat i find it very heartwarming de.. becoz it mean tuan yuan to me.. and hope it mean this to us too.. but i wont recommend to my friends to go there... food so so only..

tml is her bday party.. will upload some pics.. these few days take quite alot of pics.. bring my hk relative here and there ma.. got to sleep.. tml must go her hse.. hehe.. night..

another week has gone~~~

2009-11-28T22:14:00.000-08:00

so fast another week le.. this week quite fast right.. becoz friday is ph.. that why time pass faster.. sianz.. tml must go work again.. but luckily.. tuesday having a surgery.. wisdom tooth extraction.. wow.. the needle.. ouch.. cant think of it.. very very pain de.. but soon or later i need to extract one so why not faster.. and need to ask the dentist wat e price for whitening and cleansing.. becoz i long time nv go for dental checkup le.. scare my tooth all decayed.. haha.. other than face.. tooth must be good too..

tml whole day will be in office becoz got 2 important meetings and i first time doing minutes for my boss.. haha.. will be learning how to do one.. then i think one day gone.. and after work i will be rushing to vivo city and see my idol=) yeah.. EKIN CHENG... coming here to promote his new movie.. 风云2 !!!! so after work i will go there.. and yeah.. tuesday dun need go back camp le.. hohoho... this week my relatives from hk will come visit us.. i got to sacrifice my room for them... sobz.. but okie la.. they treat us so good when we went hk in august.. thus we must be good too them too=) will be bringing them out ba.. but after 5.. becoz i on MC... haha.. so tml after seeing Ekin.. must go home tidy up e place for them.. new bedsheet.. tidy up the living room.. clean my room etc etc~~~

yesterday sat.. been slacking at home whole day... my primary schoolmates asking me out for a dinner.. but they eating so late.. and i got to go SITEX show.. no choice cant meet them.. been sometime nv meet those gals le.. very very nice friends since primary school.. and jus now browse thru FB... they sketch a comic tall and bamboo like ZH on a tissue and upload the drawing to FB... so funny.. in their memories.. they only remember me as a tall guy only.. lolz... anyway too bad cant meet them.. went to sitex show.. as expected.. so many ppl.. went to see my ipod... chey.. the price is e same.. jus got free gifts compare to outside... but other than this.. think the HD LCD really a catch... and laptops.. think nxt time if i starting a family.. or i married. . will wait for all this electronics fair to come and get a bargain here.. really not bad wor.. think nxt yr comex show i will come here to get my laptop preparing for my studies in SIM... yeah..

that all for today... home internet down.. argh.. so very hard to update but will try to update at least twice a week... =)

days r hard ahead...

2009-11-23T08:16:00.000-08:00

24 of nov le.. over 12 am le ma.. one month will be christmas eve.. like very fast hor.. but fast also useless.. can 9 months pass even faster.. i really dunwan to stay in army le.. cant take it.. if continue like this i wan to die.. very stress... if make a mistake like will kana charge all this... and today my CI come to range to find me.. spot check me got do my jobs not.. so what if i leave early after range.. i need to do extra work one le.. this is about give and take ma.. haiz.. i dun understand why they wana check until like this... stress stress stress. hope dec come faster.. as i said in my prev post.. by then i most of the time dun need go camp...

my hk relatives come on 2nd dec.. and my wisdom tooth extraction is on 1st dec.. what e.. i cant bring them go out le.. becoz i really must stay home rest.. and think camp will ask someone come check if i am at home.. sianz.. wana bring them out de.. haiz.. too bad..

very tired le.. tml think go back camp slack and do some editing job... i wondering wat for so hardworking do the video which no one appreciate.. wtf.. i must take my own transport to and fro one. and dun even trust me on the time leaving all these..i need to fork out own time to do even after office hour.. since like this... wat for i must go to the range myself all these... no video then no lo.. dun care.. fed up.. days r hard ahead.. think got to buy more books to read up in office.. haiz.~~~~~~~

monday blues????

2009-11-22T01:17:00.000-08:00

now already sunday 5+.. another 7 hrs or so i got to sleep... then wake up must sucks thumb wear my green uniform go work.. always feel my heart sinking when i got to go work after a short break... lolz.. maybe that why i dun like work.. lolz.. but i said must change ma..

luckily.. nowadays not stay in office and will be quite busy becoz got a deadline for an assignment.. had transferred to HQ and my first assignment for this new post is to make a movie clip for my unit... and due to the limitation of the resources i have... i must go film somemore.. that why now i am free to go ranges at own time own target but even if i go home early i must do some editing work and think of the parts of how to project the scenes... not an easy task.. thou the deadline is feb nxt year.. but i know nuts of video editing.. and xenia said is easy to do one... still feel bit stress..

becoz for my principal and working style is... either u dun do it at all.. if not u must do a perfect job.. (maybe this give me excuses not to do many things, haha) that why since i was pick to do this video.. i need to do it till everyones jaws drop~~~ lucky my boss who is a major quite support me.. and enroll me into a 1 wk video course at safti... new workplace still got many things not yet settle.. example my camp pass, OA account and issac card.. so many things..

hohoho... christmas coming.. this yr Orchard lightning really nice... better than last yr one... and quite looking forward.. becoz this yr E4 all members finally got gf le.. i mean all at the same time... think i mentioned it in the prev post.. but this yr we hope to orgranise a party among ourselves.. maybe a chalet, a bbq or even beach party.. not sure yet.. but think shld be fun.. haha..

this yr DEC go few things to look forward.. first is xenia bday... then is 风云2 at 10th of decemeber.. please be supportive.. haha.. becoz ekin is starring it.. then 4 weeks think i only going camp for 1 week.. becoz 1st dec i got a wisdom tooth extraction... OUCH!! will be pain!! the 麻醉针 is really super pain.. but try to endure it.. becoz suppose pluck it earlier but nv book appointment.. so will be having 6-8 days mc.. dun know yet... so one wk siam camp le.. then 22nd got an appointment which is a tuesday.. think half day in camp and i going off to National skin centre le.. yeah yeah.. and then all the way till nxt yr then report back to camp...

wahahaha... 4th of Jan is the new working day... best la.. so zai.. the best part is for such a long break only used up 6 days of my leave and my only leaves left... zai right?? i quite proud of myself.. but thanks to christmas and new year la.. hahaha... after it must be super rush on my video le..

and starting counting down on my army days.. hope i everyday go back work will pass time faster.. and either i go back study or go SIA or Cathay pacific apply for air attendant le.. or maybe can try to become a police... not sure yet.. but will think carefully for my future..

the dream is a long term one.. but during festival.. everyone got their wishlist.. for nxt yr.. short term wishlist i would like to get myself more things..

1. ipod nano, or iTouch
2. touchscreen phone best is Iphone so can skip no. 1 items haha
3. class 3
4. class 2a
5. bike (most prob will get super4 or maybe skipper)
6. air con for my room
7. laptop
8. long term stability with gf
9. 2 holiday trips ( hk and either taiwan or bangkok)
10. TOTO 10 million hongbao!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hehe=)

drink drank durnk

2009-11-20T12:24:00.000-08:00

friday.. think every friday will be the drink drank drunk day for me... because sat suppose to be day to accompany xenia... yeah... so fri shld be the free day for me to drink with friends.. but i think i only left hock they all le.. haiz...

when we meet... i really miss jimmy and hock so much.. so long nv meet le.. and they congrat me that i back with xenia again... yeah... thanks bro.. anyway... u all really my bros... we meet at dobby ghaut but becoz e crowd... we went boat quay.. cosy bar.. not bad e place... and we order a tower... in e end we drank 1 tower and 3 jugs... drank quite alot.. think if xenia see this post surely angry de.. but i duno why i keep drinking... i know she keep worry i drink too much and do wrong things again... i know if she see this updated post sure angry de.. but i still wana write my feeling out...

ops.. at cosy bar.. we drink then play pool and sing.. and i listen to so many songs... some songs are noted and i will either post it here or facebook.. really nice... if u r pay attention listen to e songs u will know.. hehe.. at least to me la... =((( i am not disturbed by e fact... xenia dun think too much again... think i am drunk la.. but u r important to me... i made e choice and this is the choice i wanted... so i wont regret... but i need time to forget her... jus time... becoz it is a fact u and i cant denied... she leaves something behind... and it need time to get over... sorry if i offended u.. but this don mean i don love u... and i dun need more time to confirm b4 being with u.. i confirmed le.. just that i think i really a super super bad guy who hurt someone and i guilty for who i am... haiz.. hope u understand...

think i really drunk... so late still writing these.. but actually i jus called her.. i mean xenia. tml she exam... so wake her up to study... hope she can make it.. but i know she can de... hehe.. and hock and jimmy also happy that i be with her... hehe... xenia happy to know my best buddies happy for this.. haha=)..

so u guys wana here the songs i wana upload?? i will even if u all dunwan.. haha.. coz this is my blog.. hehe... anyway jus now the pub really very idiot.. thou is ktv pub.. but during 1.30 - 2 plus the bar counter played those club songs.. argh... i so wana club... and i think if i do club.. i will have some memories abt her.. tt why i say i need time... idiot.. play those club songs. dear xenia.. dun think too much k.. jus songs.. everyone have memories.. even u right... dun worry k... whenever be with u... only u on my minds... and jus now hock we all discussing abt all 5 of us E4 finally all coupled.. so we thinking having chalet or bbq session or pub session... soon.. then 10 of us will have some wonderful moments...

to the one i hurt... haiz.. sorry.. if u reading this i know u must be so hurt... sorry... but we all must face e fact... find him back.. i sure u will happy with him de... sorry.. and xenia dun angry okie.. i am e one should bear most of the blame... i really did something wrong.. haiz. anyway enjoy all e songs guys...

sat.. tml is dear's mum bday.. tml shld hve a dinner with her mum... and hope today i can totally relax... very stress this week... headache... hope i will enjoy every moments from now on... sorry to those i hurt.. not only recent one.. all e ones i hurt in e past.. i really a super bad guy.. hope i learnt e mistake. and wont make it again=(((((

明天以後

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愛我的人和我愛的人

sat... tonight can stay at dear house and watch guess guess guess... so long.. tonight must cook supper at her hse... long time nv go her hse le.. yeah...

a brand new start???

2009-11-18T07:28:00.001-08:00

today i am transferred to SIW HQ... now already become personal assistant of my Chief Instructor who is a MAJ. but today when i report... a staff sgt give me warning to wat not to do.. and wateva... quite sian by the morning greeting.. haiz.. then was brief wat my job scope.. actually my job not very tough.. jus lengthy.. but is okie.. because will use up whole day to do.. hope i can change my bad habit.. yeah.. hope this is a brand new start for me to start working good again....

today at workplace not really busy.. becoz CI nv ask me do anything yet.. quite boring.. then i go home after 5.30.. reach home at 6.15... quite fast wor.. but now my feeling very sianz.. haiz.. nowadays very very sianz wor.. thou i know wat should i do.. but i really duno how to end it nicely... haiz. duno how to continue here... very tired.. sleepy... tml continue..

tuesday afternoon...

2009-11-16T21:38:00.000-08:00

wow.. my blog got some changes... like a female blog... lolz.. but quite nice.. and the color fit my theme..

灰色空间

got to thank my friend who help me in the setting... haiz... recently really too many troubles... but all is cause by me ZHFONG~~~ haiz... to be heartbreaker is not like the song so nice... so easy to dance... and after being one u usually will have insomnia.. when i can be stronger?? and overcome this tide... lovegame is not a game all of us shld play... is so dangerous.. and fire burning sensation... just and advice.. the hurting feeling cause to others is definitely not enjoying... Right now i only hope everyone is fine... and will sleep soundly and have a sugar dreams... i really regret of clubbing for so often... i think i never forgive myself again.. and i won't make the same mistake again...

today my cousin come... will bring her go out gai gai... will update again.. and this blog will keep updated... stay tuned~~~

pain pain pain~~~

2009-11-09T04:39:00.000-08:00

today went to hospital because nearly faint due to my chest pain... is getting really worse which i can wake up from sleep because i am too pain!!! the painkiller doesn't work..

ECG and Xray cant find the root of my problem and the doctor like dun trust me.. but e pain really unbearable.. cant take it.. so the doctor say give me a jab of painkiller and put under observation for an hour... after that ask me to admit in but i decline.. because sleep in hospital alone is so scary... and i doubt ppl will come visit me.. now while i writing this blog... my chest is still aching.. wat the.. i so scare.. will i sleep and don wake up nxt morning.. anyway is really karma.. becoz of all e shit i did..

yesterdae xenia after work come to dine with me.. i know she is so stress up that she screw up her assesment in singapore turf club... the test is getting tougher and i think the tester is so strict.. is jus unlucky.. so dun fed up okie.. extend ur training and do e test again.. sure pass de.. and the problems i cause her to be so down.. is all my fault.. i can see her restless too... sorry.. at the moment i really cant and duno how to help her.. jus wan to let her know.. school works are more important.. jia you and remember to rest... rest is to walk longer..

this weekend i think i going genting to relax.. think it will be better for my condition.. but i scare later i suddenly so pain duno how.. dun think so much le.. jus wana get some rest too... is dinner time.. okie le.. tml will be a good day for me.. hope i can relax more.. and not heartpain~~~

i am left to rot~~

2009-11-06T23:35:00.000-08:00

sat.. think most of u is having dates or planning some night out... i am rotting at home... but i think i deserve it.. since wed i discover my ligament beside my rib cage tear.. till now i din apply the cream doctor prescribed.. the pain is getting worse and i can wake up from my sleep becoz i lie on my right side which cause the pain... but i still nv apply.. becoz this will remind the pain i cause to others...

so today sat and tml sunday i will be left to rot at home.. keep watching hk drama.. and this keep remind me of hk.. i so wana go back to hk... just the night scene will make me feel so relax.. e nxt time i go i can jus sit at the xin guang da dao whole night with 2 cans of beers.. one of my friends jus went and i think she is enjoying herself. disneyland, the peak, central and etc... everywhere can see the seas.... wow.. breathe catching.. anyway nxt weekend i applied overseas leave.. so i think is my turn to go relax awhile... at least hide somewhere.. i am a hermit crab... only know how to hide. but i think this time i really hurt my love ones so much... i dun deserve her forgiveness le... i think i cant give her happiness in any near future.. hope we can cool down.. and she will forgive me one day... haiz.. hope this weekend i can leave sg and jus temp leave this place... haiz.. =( where is the happiness i used to have.. and i throw them away...

Zh is a fcuking BASTARD!!!

2009-10-31T22:45:00.000-07:00

nearly one year since i come back.. but everything changed... and to a bad way... this zh who is writing this post is no longer e one i know... he is a fcuking bastard!!! i know him... e one always thought that he is not bad.. and confident of himself... but whatever he does... he always know what e hell he is doing.. he knows what right and wrong... but now... he is a idiot... he always like to flirt.. this one i understand.. actually flirting is really okie... really? who don't flirt?? even if he is in a rs.. but he know flirting is jus flirting.. he wont over the line.. but this time.. he is playing with fire... and end up a fire disaster then hurt so so many people... the one he loves.. and loves him... what the hell is this zh doing?? who he thinks he is... he just a bastard... I really wrong le.. i made this grave mistake... and end up i duno wat to do... can someone help me?? if i ever got this chance to revert everything i will not do it again... ARGH!!!!!!! Sorry.... is the only thing i can do now... haiz..

12 days more to go~~

2008-11-21T16:47:00.000-08:00

jus another 12 days of suffering in the stupid island i will promote to private.. finally my key events in my training schedule have cleared one by one and only left with a long walk which will really freak you out.. training wise i can't really share here but mostly people know what bmtc is about la so no point bragging here.. for me i clear my bmtc as i passed all the requirement so i just waiting for how they think of me and where they wana put me in..

during all these days, i can only enjoy the limited time in sinapore mainland and so sad to say i am always with my girlfriend and i think i not a good son.. sigh.. but i promise from now on to stay home more often when i get to book out. i really put in effort for my training, and whenever there is time at night i will go down for a run when most of my platoon mate enjoying their resting time in the bunk.. anyway i am pursuing my dream too that why i hope to be one of the best in my platoon. those who know me well know i wana to be someone who can fly.. although this is really a high and faraway dream, but i really hope i can make it. that why from the very beginning i must do well to prove people up there i am eligible and fit the requirement.
RSAF I AM COMING!!! HAHA

after 10 weeks of training i really feel that i become stronger not only body but mentally, so the remaining 2 weeks and 2 days are nothing to me. i just need to endure the pass the slowest 2 weeks in BMT. haha.. and after it i will be going to KL again to relax before i continue my route of pursuing the dream... so there shall be it for e moment... will only update pic in months time as my head still botak.. not handsome anymore.. haha

Goodbye~~ Here I come Singapore!!!

2008-09-15T16:49:00.001-07:00

Now is 8am in the morning i am writing this entrty the very last before i am botak... i am going tekong soon for my national service.. my feeling is not really up and down but the main thing i can't bear to leave is my girlfriend who i worry the most. Hopefully she can take good care of herself and i know she will and independent enough to=)

Packing up my things yesterday and now is packing up my feeling.. can i do it in the army? I will fight hard and i need to thanks my Dearest girl who gave me a wonderful weekend and build my confidence up...

We just celebrated our 1 year anniversary and yeah.. hopefully we can overcome this 2 years army life and her school life and we will then plan for our brighter future but now this is important as well.. so come to basic this 2 years are crucial.....

Lets view our beautiful moments and hope you guys can witness for us....

篮球火 aka Hot Shot

2008-09-01T23:22:00.000-07:00

Have anyone heard about this flim? actually about 2 months ago keep hearing this show from Show Luo aka 小猪 in his 百分百 le.. but never really keep a notice because i dun really like 偶像剧。The taiwan drama is well known for the exaggerate effect and unrealistic stories.. that why i just dun like it.

Then how about this show? yes! is still a super exaggerate drama, because the first episode Jerry Yan already fly to a 3m+ height to dunk. *JAWS DROP...

but because of the cast catch my attention... 3 of the Top Taiwan Yandao is in this flim... Wu Zhun, Show Luo and Jerry Yan. Omg... Jerry Yan, support him because of his super yandao feature. But this show abit disappointed, his hair cut spoilt him la.. but nvm... wana catch it all.. yesterdae been to online streaming and manage to catch 2 episode. haha.. quite nice and of course never to miss the 主题曲----- 绝对无敌

ps: the one you listening now is it. Catchy right=)

PaNic But Eager to IMpreSS

2008-08-31T20:54:00.000-07:00

2 more weeks.. just barely 2 weeks i gona enlisted le.. finally my turn.. currently i am really super panic and wonder how was tekong look like.. but i really eager to impress.. i hope i can be a leader... i think i can... anyway just had a super weekend which i celebrated my best friend' birthday... a long waited BBQ session finally here..

at friday my good brother CK and my best gf Xenia accompany me to IMM to buy those bbq stuff and kinda enjoying myself because i had been waiting this day to come long long time.. and sat finally here.. reach there (WEST COASST) at evening with Milton helping me and we carried tons of things there and manage to get a decent place to bbq.. haha.. is illegal one because we get ourselves a portable bbq pit.. lolz.. then CK a sergeant now volunteer to set the fire and power sia.. he very good in surviving skills i can say.. no wonder can become sergeant.. haha.. and at ard 7.. our 主角is here.. and we just nice to start the bbq.. anyway is really a bloop.. should defroze the food earlier.. haiz.. anyway the bbq end it with lot of laughter and fun.. and Mil and me manage to give Sze a suprise..

after the dinner.. we change our location to somewhere near the beach.. for our drinking session and my poor lil bro CK excuse himself to go off first as he is the only single there ( 3 couples there )... feel sad but dunwan to force him either.. then we sat down in a circle and start our drinking.. but not a chiong one though we brought alot of alcohol there.. haha.. maybe all dunwan to get drunk.. and we manage to brainstorm an outing to KL this Dec after my BMT.. and it will be my first couples vocation man... i really looking forward.. haha.. hope it can be finalised and 6 of us can have one perfect outing together..

2 weeks.. 2 weeks.. and that week will be my first year anniversary with Xenia.. sorry dear.. that i can't able to spend the special day with you.. hopefully 2nd year we can.. =)

Countdown to my biggest Party~~

2008-08-17T21:31:00.000-07:00

Erm.. is 18th-August-2008 today, from my office view, is a perfectly norm day but i just can't lift up my spirit. I just feeling so dull after a long morning's work. anyway is not because i unhappy or sad or whatsoever.. i just duno why... but the thought of meeting my gf later make my time pass easier.. DEFINETELY!!!

28 days more will be my D-Day... countdown to my biggest party.. at there i will know many new friends.. and lose my weight down and build my six-packs and sharpen my character and last but not least.. 2 years gone... lolz.. personally i no fear of serving the nation but i just afraid my gf can't cope without me... not that she is not independent enough.. i just afraid she will be bullied or feeling unwell without my prescene.. anyway i believe is an obstacle for us to break through and after this 2 years.. hopefully i can heed PM LEE advice in NDP Rally yesterday, to marry young=) but of coz not straight after NS.. maybe earn my first gold bucket.. before 30?? who knows. but planning is important.. I treasure this relationship that much and till now i believe i am the Zhi hao i used to be when i am in Secondary school.. no more playing and risking the one i ought to cherish =)

working working working... i kinda tired as i working from 9am to 9pm everday.. from 9am to 6pm i working admin job in bugis and straight after work i rush to lavender to collect some health product for delivery.. and norm deliver till 8plus-9pm.. haiz.. but hopefully can earn some $$ before going IN=(

but till weekend i am e happiest man.. i have my gf accompany and yesterday (sunday) after fetching her from tuition we went for breakfast then passby this video disc shop near her hse and we decided to rent some DVDs home to kill our day.. and we rent these 3 movies

lolz.. is a movie marathon and we decided to start on 2 Grossy flim which is vacancy and Living death.. erm well, how should i rate this 2 movies... grossy level is not as gross as Saw or hostel... story level is normal maybe the Living death is better.. but overall is not a bad flim la.. as these are watched by my gal and I so i Love it overall...

as in the middle we are interupt by NDP rally and Singapore table tennis hard-fought Gold medal match.. we stop to give our Singapore team some support.. and here i shall congrat singapore for being 2nd and the first medal in 48 years... Congrat.. and about the NDP rally... abit disappointed.. nothing suprise me..

okie Highlight of the night is about this japanese movie.. Koizora.. 恋之空.. we manage to watch disc 1 only as both of us got to wake up early today.. and i am so eager to finish 2nd disc because it a must-watch movie for couple.. i am touched by it.. and recomend to all of you here.. go and rent it Please.. haha.. anyway i really wana to find out why the male-lead(super handsome because of the blonde hair) wana to break-up with the female-lead.. and how the ending going to be... and some sentences in the movie is so romantic... erm... wana know more.. watch it yourself k=)

got to back to work le.. will be back soon

p.s: my best buddy Sze Li birthday is coming.. may all his wishes come true and happily ever after with Xiao jun=)

Movies movie movies...

2008-07-29T09:06:00.000-07:00

this 2 months really been a movie month.. and is really relax and enjoying to watch movie in cinema.. i mean the sound and watsoeva effect is different compare to watchin it at home.. let me see wat movies i have been watching.. most recent will be wedding daze... then dark knight, Red Cliff, Get smart, Wanted, 21, What happen in vegas and etc.. can remember much.. but almost every weekend i go for a movie.. wow.. nice ya.. especially have someone by ur side...=) anyway there will be some upcoming flim i like to catch... Money not enough 2 and The Mummy 3... is a must!!! haha.. okie le.. jus to do a small update on my life..

dEteST!!!

2008-07-07T22:10:00.000-07:00

before the day starts, i already a half-dead man.. and eventually i hope to be a full one.. i really cant take all the shits anymore.. perhaps is myself who lead to how terrible my life is.. i cant blame no one but i also dun have the energy to solve all the shits and i really hope the last resort perhaps is to leave it and be a coward... ya.. i am a coward.. i feel helpless and lost in this small world..

okie.. so i am once again awake and open my eyes to face this cruel world.. just got to continue to move on for the time being.. and hell yeah.. i was is this unstable, mindfreak condition which lead to my first accident on the road.. i duno isit becoz of my weak response or becoz of this stupid mother fucker driver who suddenly change its lane that lead to my first stupid accident.. thou is a minor one that jus my front wheel fairing crack.. but my lil bro hurts too. and due to this traumatization.. i fully awake.. i freak out.. and the stupid driver agree no compensation i continue my pain to school... ( what if my accident happen during i ride on expressway?? what if the accident is so serious that i now end up in hospital?? what if i can really leave this stupid world??)

Seriously, how many of us in this world think of dying?? i think there should be quite a number.. that is why when i read newspaper about this NSF case.. i really feel pity and hurt for him.. because of all the fucking problems we guys facing.. that lead to the stupidity.. but if i am him.. i would get the courage of trigger the shot to my head.. once and for all.. Despression~~ is this an excuse or seriously is thisa problem most of us faced?? ya.. i agree man should be strong to tune the mindset to the correct frequency.. but sometime it jus so hard.. and confusing.. grey will be just getting darker.. and the darkness will eventually engulf you and in e end... you will find urself disappear and being eaten up in this dark World..

So in e end.. my time is still not up yet.. and i am able to write this stupid thing online.. i duno how long can i take it.. but i jus feel i getting weaker and weaker every now and then... my mentality is jus not strong.. i duno why.. friends, family is the source of energy... yeah.. i agree... but family is not an option since i know what a problem is... and friends??? my love one has been there for me but think she maybe getting sick enough of me... friends?? so busy that we seldom chat about our problems.. and slowly we are turning into jus eat-drink, hi-bye friends.. is jus unlike how we confess our problems during young days..

Conclusion ----- i hope i never born into this world.... or can let me jus sleep and never wake up anymore...

pre-celebration for 9th months=)

2008-06-17T08:42:00.000-07:00

First of all~~ i like to share with you guys something tht i come across..

recently i come across to this blog which i wont name it.. i find the author really really very similar to who i am in the past..

his devoted heart toward his beloved gf.. and whateva he typed reminds me alot back to the past.. i admired his love and passions and i never say is wrong to love someone with all your might.. and whenever you love someone i think you should give your 100%.. of coz this is the way...

but maybe my comment s misunderstood.. i giving him an advice is not to be so commited to the relationship until he grow more matured and know what life is about.. i dun mean he is chidish or whateva but i guess his life experience may not enough.. maybe the one who is readind now should know...

relationship happen in secondary normally don't last.. this perhaps got several reasons causing it.. immature, playful and etc.. but i think the specific major reason should be when one grow up.. everything seems to be changing.. and include love and feeling.. i duno much about others.. but for my personal experience and people ard me.. is due to this..

i know is unfair to categorise all under it but truthly speaking.. someone n age of 17 saying this ------------>you i wish the remaining time in my life every second can have around.. foreva..

sounds familiar.. i think when we guys or i can say all of us said such thing before... who dont wish everyday can be with our love one.. and in fact?? that why i say with as times goes by... he will know reality and dream is totally different thing..

maybe you are such devoted guy who don't change.. but your gf might.. i just wana let him know the higher you climb the harder you might get if you fall...

okie.. i know you will say.. if scare this or that.. why i still choose to be in love.. that why when one grow up.. you experience all kind of things and you eventually will know what you actually want..

and that why wat i wana imply to you is only when you know what life is all about.. and what you want.. you then fully commit to the relationship.. i dun mean not full commitment means you dun love the gal.. if you think that.. mean you are childish..

and i can 100% sure you still duno wat life is all about and you duno what u really wan for a life partner.. and you say you do and ur current gf is what u wan.. haha.. i will not say anything again and jus smile.. of coz i will give you my blessing.. anyway conclusion is i dun mean to break u up.. and jus wana give you some advice.. serious.. anyway end of this...

okie... let continue on my own story... my gal went to bintan and have fun with her small aunt.. sobz.. haiz.. how can she so heartless go there without me.. damn damn sad..

but ok le.. i know she so looking forward to a sunny island and get every inch of her skin tanned.. hope when she back i still recognize who she is.. haha..

anyay this coming 19th is our 9th month but we have a fabulous dinner at last saturday=) seriously.. can go thru this 9 months to me is not hard at all.. she is so diff to my past gals and i know she is someone i hope i can continue for as long as possible...

future nobody knows but i jus hope nothing go wrong an i know even if someone is at fault if we break.. i gona be the one.. she is just so near to perfect that i dun think she will do anything wrong behind my back..

okie so we went to this very very nice place to eat.. why i say that.. becoz of the ambience.. thou is a non-aircon location but it jus remind me that is one of e scene i watched my hk drama.. really.. no jokes..

we are sitting the back alley.. and is not dirty at all... the lightning and everything.. very hk feeling..haha.. we already name the place as our "lao di fang"

anyway we have one fish soup, one claypot veggie and the main dish is chilli crab!!! this is the first time i enjoy crab with my gf.. she is the first gal... haha..

duno why in the past no chance to eat crab with my gf.. so this add to a meaningful moment in our rs... another first time=).. so this goes our 9th months.. and i using this chance to hope we can continue as always.. happily and sweet...

after sending her to tanah merah mrt station on monday afternoon.. send my bike to workshop and shit.. spend a bomb.. 350.. sobz... change piston, block and clean exhaust.. no choice.. i cant even start my bike.. but the result is satisfy... becoz the bike is like a new one.. jus that i can ramp it an maintain the speed at 80 max for the first 500 km.. not to spoil the new piston..

after that had a dinner with weiting my old old pri schmate.. long long time no see.. and as usual.. her chubby face.. why you still so chubby.. pls.. cut some meat of face down if not i think you cant find a guy la.. haha.. kiddingx...then we watched the Incedible Hulk.. real long time never watch movie.. anyway i shall rate this movie 3.5/5.. as the story and action not bad.. jus the ending quite lame.. and is really lame..

cOme on is 3 more weEks..

2008-06-12T18:49:00.000-07:00

Today is friday and from next week onward is my countdown 3 weeks to my end of project then i will be slacking and wait for my NS life=)

but i dun think i gona slack becoz there so much debts for me to clear.. my bike, my card bills and my daily expenses.... haiz.. money money money.. hate it.. being an adult is really so so xin ku... must think of so many problems and you cant run away.. the only way to escape maybe jus go and die..

and recently i see the news and i was kinda shock that the sucide rate in japan is so high and i think this is the after effect and sacrifice under the modern economy strategy.. because nowadays ppl are not working just physically but mentally... haiz.. but to survive is normally the fittest.. dun everyone agree?? jus hope that i can have better luck~~ anyway jus hope to have better life and safety=)

just got myself a job of promoting sony ericsson phone.. think starting next week.. then july i will find myself another job so anyone got any lobang.. care to intro=) hope can earn 1.5k in on month and hopefully can earn ard 3k in 2 months.. save up some to go in ns also..

currently i hope to give my dearly more i can.. think she give me so much that i cant repay... i know that in heart=) thou i not sure future how its look like but hopefully we can survive all obstacles.. and tie up the knot... hehe~~

10/06/08 everything going quite smoothly

2008-06-09T20:27:00.000-07:00

finally, i get to ride and ride and ride and i think i miss the time on train and bus le... and there is time i lost my ways and some dangerous moments but overall i rate myself as a safe rider... i dun change lane often and anyhow cut the vehicle.. deep in me, i know i just a small fish in expressway and any mistakes could lead to some really serious results.. so i pray hard that i will be an accident-free rider forever... and i think petrol really not that cheap when u riding a sportbike.. my fc is around 180-200km for one full tank.. think becoz of some illegal mod of my bike.. gona change it back before it drain my pocket.. i went for a service at HKL motor and quite satisfied but gona save up to clean my pipe.. think is too dirty le.. anyway wana do some slight makeover for the bike too.. first had some sticker on the bike, neon light and angel eyes too.. hope go some night riding with my gal or friends can make the ride more pretty=)

yeah, at here wana thanks my gf's dad... he bought me one bi-qiu to ward off danger, accident.. is a feng shui thing le.. my gal already bought me one rhino le which got the same effect.. thanks to all this auspicious item and i believe it worked!! becoz till now i am still so safe and i will continue to ride safely... is a promise not only to myself but my family and love ones...

finally.. after waiting for 4 years, EURO come again but without singapore fav ENGLAND.. but is okie.. becoz it still so exciting.. compare to World Cup.. obviously is not tt eyes catching but i can tell u all that this EURO 08 is an event you must catch.. with portugal, germany and holland these countries in there, it proves to be an exciting and breathe-taking sport event of the year~~ i start participating in it by working in Singaporepools on friday which is one day before the kick.. because of the new bet slips introduce.. i was there to guide those uncles how to bet.. but eventually most of them know how to draw the bet slips le so i was like doing nothing but jus keep standing.. anyway the first 2 days of EURO i lost 40 bucks le.. sianz... but getting back my momentum when i jackpot yesterdae by daring enough to mark draw-draw for Romania-France match and bet over goals for Holland-Italy and yes... i was correct.. haha.. win back 30 plus after invest 100 for this 3 days..

so tonight i gona be accurate again.. hope my luck lady wont run away from me... ( by the way result for the past 3 days is : Switzerland 0 - 1 Czech Republic, Portugal 2 - 0 Turkey,

Austria 0 - 1 Croatia, Germany 2 - 0 Poland, Romania 0 - 0 France, Holland 3 - 0 Italy)

till now portugal, Germany and holland performjing good enough to clinch the title and i will see how spain go tonight.. i will be updating EuRo 08 for you guys and hope my analysis can help some of you win some $$ lolz... huat Ar!!!

anyway some good news to update here is last wednesday My mum tio 4Ds... haha.. and is my hp no. 8163!!! starters and won $1250 and i was rewarded 500 bucks to do my servicing and stuff.. but $$ come and goes man.. i manage to keep some to invest in my soccer.. hope can roll back more!! anyway pic of bikes will be update after i do some makeover for my bike=)

Nervous, Excited, sCAreD ~~~~~

2008-05-28T20:23:00.000-07:00

Is this sound like you are having your "first time"... lolz.. ya is first time for me.. but dun get the wrong idea.. my first time to ride the bike down the road... tml... i shld be confident enough but the thought of riding on expressway alone really freak me out.. and i later will be going to collect my insurance policy.. third party cost me 570 bucks.. but lucky can installment.. so is okie la.. but third party dont give me the assurance at least don't protect my special girl.. so i thinking of getting a personal accident for her and for me.. i thinking of getting a investment plan.. check with friend 125 per month.. during my ns will be abit tight but this is a investment plan so by end of 3 years down the road i can save some money le.. isit a good thing?? (125 x 12mths x 3 years = $4500.. so after my ns i can have this amount save.. like not much hor.. but data show a 15% return over the years.. so plus return is 5175.. erm.. so at least getting back 5k but if i save for 5 years will be a 8k + le wor..) 5 years later i will be 27.. this amount like pocket money for me wor.. haha.. but is not a bad thing afterall.. okokie.. i will give a serious thought of getting one.. even ns first 3 months will be tight.. but i hope to save some $$ now.. then after ns will increase the investment too.. hehe.. okokie.. so now i got to bear a $47 /mth for 1 year down.. and every month maintainence for bike (petrol, servicing ) i think every month shld be ard $80? not very sure now.. plus my basic expenses add up to 200 per month le.. wow.. headache when see money problems.. haiz.. must be jiayou le.. july must really find a job to work le.. so i can save some $$ during my ns bmt period.. then hope can go to sergeant or officer course.. so i got more income.. yeah.. okie la.. will be update soon!!

I am Back AGAIN!!!!

2008-05-26T22:02:00.000-07:00

wow.. i jus read my past postings and is like whoa.. it really been so long since i update.. and i bet no one will notice it since some reflect to me that my blog is under maintainence for so long.. and now should be zero viewing le.. anyway~~ i write this is to kill time and to give myself a place to breathe... today is 27th May 2008.. wow.. since last post is like.. haha.. so i think i should have tons to update.. haha.. kidding.. i don't think i can remember all the details.. let starts...

since last october.. till now i have still being with this special lady ------ Xenia =) this coming 19th will be our 9th month !? haha.. long time never been into a happy relationship which i am happy and my other half is happy ( are you happy?).. anyway i always wan a serious, settle or i should say down-to-earth relationship.. i am not someone can give my love one too much luxury but at least i will give her my best.. yeah.. since my first rs i wana to have a simple and sweet rs that i can commited into.. but first one turn out to be my trial, and 2nd serious rs is a mistake in the first place.. FOR NOW, i believe i am more matured (not that flirty) and more serious as from the beginning i know i will be happy being with YOU=) i admit in the past i am a not someone good but i hold a strong belief in not stepping onto 2 boats and till now i didn't and i think i wont break this rule in this Special rs... from the date we r together, we celebrate each other birthdays, christmas, new year, chinese new year, VALENTINE and national day... lolz.. which i long long time nv celebrate with my love one le.. all these prove?? you are someone special~~~ so don't ever doubt yourself because even if there one to feel inferior in this rs, i will be the one because always i am the one not giving enough.. so this coming august will be our 3rd national day firework ( Officially together is 1st time as previous 2 times we not yet together). by then i think will be a memorable one.. then after that will be our 1st year... if.. erm.. no-if.. i sure we will spend our 1st year happily.. haha.. yeah.. then will be our 2nd christmas, new year and hopefully we will keep spending the days and months and years together.. ya.. during the times i never update.. we had our first holiday to KL.. and nxt trip plan ahead is HK, Taiwan or nearest Bintan=).. jus planning.. hope to find couples to go for a couples trip.. haha..

okie.. other than relationship during this never-update period.. actually i really not much to update becoz i think 70% of my times is being with her.. okok.. just kidding.. ya.. got to mention is i had a terrible experience during my experience.. engineering student work as delivery man for computers.. haiz.. this is why my dream is to be Air-steward.. be an engineer? leave me alone please.. haha.. this attachment period is across all the festivals.. damn it.. my christmas, new year and chinese year are so tiring.. and now chionging my last 6 weeks of project... good news is i wana faster get enlisted and is september and i think my 1 year anniversary going to spoil and i know she will understand one because she is the most undestanding girl i ever know.. not a jealousy girl too.. make me feel so comfortable.. haha=)

Especially now i change my job to bartender.. ya.. i officially announce i working in THE ARENA as a bartender(barback now) those clubbers can come and look for me.. quite a nice place.. but i got to thanks my girl for giving so much understanding and support.. and i promise i won't do anything silly... the most is look at girls.. haha.. anyway 2 weeks ago i finally passed my TP. Take one year to pass my 2B really throw face but i am now legalise by singapore government i can ride le.. haha.. and i getting my SP soon.. by this week... yeah!! wonderful.. will upload pics soon.. but as for now.. i am super feeling unwell.. running nose, and very sleepy.. think i end here le.. see ya all soon=))

long long time no see~~~

2007-10-16T00:48:00.000-07:00

ops.. since my last post.. it really been a long time.. firstly because my computer crash down.. idiot virus.. also duno why.. sobz.. my files all gone.. pictures dun have le.. sianz le.. memories~~ try to backup it.. see how ba.. okok.. back to my life.. these 2 weeks i am very happy.. because i got to spend much of my time with my special one.. and a new gang.. turfclub teenage... haha.. first talk about my girlfriend.. we been sticking to each others most of our time.. movies.. dinner... home sweet home.. joking.. and mesmerizing.. ops.. anyway time flies.. so fast and everytime cant bear to leave her out of my sight.. and there last friday.. we went clubbing.. haha.. thou with my cousin and brother and friends.. but is like we going on our own.. because others wana go to the main (mos) for the techno... cant take it.. and we both went over to smoove for our rnb session~~ i seldom seldom will go clubbing with gf one.. if i not wrong she is my 2nd girl i bring to.. and i think future i club will ask her along.. coz she simply devil when dancing.. haha.. nice and fun=) we quite click towards each other interest (except she dun watch soccer.. ops) hehe.. clubbing but not hardcore clubber.. hehe and my mum really can click with her well.. everytimes i saw them chatting..(in cantonese) i will secretly smile one.. and i really like a stupid keep smiling.. hehe but i enjoy it.. especially i see her as a future.. is important then my mum and my family like her.. anyway consecutive 2 sundays went out with my turfclub colleague.. like a new gang is born.. we are having so much fun lo.. haha.. joking and disturbing and mahjong.. lolz.. very fun.. planning a chalet ahead.. think should be enjoying!! haha

yupz.. anyway my birthday is coming.. ops.. i not hinting for presents.. but got something would like to share.. haha.. i got myself an early present.. form ESPN.. haha.. guisness 9 ball tour bring me my first present.. an IPOD NANO... so happy.. haha.. i did a survey for them a month ago.. and yeah~~ i cant imagine i am the winner.. shock man!! anyway jus come in time for my 21st birthday.. thank espn.. i will continue support the sport one=)

Am i good enough to be by your side??

2007-10-02T11:03:00.000-07:00

ops.. first of all please don't think my newly relationship has any problems.. hehe.. just my usual pessimistic me is showing out again... to be frank.. i think i really mark u as a important person to me le.. because u just cant leave my mind... isit because we just together?? haha.. but i hope not.. erm.. sorry these few days.. i cant make you concentrate on your study~~ i think i really your burden.. thou i quite happy to see you so touched by my suprise delivered=) to be frank hor.. you are the first one i do such thing.. really~~ so you should be honoured~~ anyway i also glad one thing.. all my family welcome u man!! =) think u really got e angel look to attract everyone.. haha=) especially my mum.. u shld be touched too.. she heard u keep coughing these few days over video call and jus now eventually fork out $$ to ask me help u buy cough syrup~~ i kind of suprise also.. hehe.. got it.. my mum got hao gan to u... is a good start~~

yupz.. shall back to e topic.. thou i think i do my job to keep u happy.. but i think my bad habits like keep u worried hor.. alot wor.. today when we chat.. i know u minus mark le.. but i hope to be frank to u.. and i ensure u i will try to kick away all of it.. i know i can do it one.. jus scare i am not good enough to u.. but on e meantime i will try my best make u e happiest gal.. yupz yupz yupz.. so late le i still cant sleep.. insonmia again?? ops.. anyway gona sleep soon..

anyway my last sentence is to some special guest.. really thanks to u.. u make me realise how bad i am.. and not to make it.. thanks for ur concern.. same as me.. keep viewing each other blog.. but i think u r wrong.. mine is sound of happiness. not horny.. mind ur vocab okie?? if u dun considered i as ur friend.. i dun mind.. but dun come see le unhappy or jealous or wateva.. i dun care.. then go to ur blog and write those rubbish.. okie?? anyway take care.. and hope u will get somone love u like wat i experience now~~

=) ou Webcam session~~ ops.. i got ya!!

we got a nice smile~

the first candlelight dinner we had=)

SweetNeSs fRom tHe Bottom of my heart=)

2007-09-23T23:22:00.000-07:00

first of all.. thanks ice.. erm.. for giving me a hard knock on my head.. i mean what for consider so much when u love someone.. yeah.. my impression of being a playboy once again is up becoz after a 9 months singlehood life.. i once again declare myself attached.. lolz.. and sorry to say i not a playboy.. maybe in e past i am.. but i wont be one for my special lady... everything is smooth and simple.. but maybe is just the beginning.. but i know she kind of different.. at least i know she wont be a demanding gf.. and she not those who be easily mood swing and easy hot tempered one.. ops.. sometime things cant say tt early hor.. hehe.. but i got confident..=)) yupz.. how our story start.. actually can say our relation can start as far as secondary school.. but till now then we know we fond in each other.. hehe.. anyway now not too late.. i always ask her.. if at that time we are together do u think is good?? will we now still together?? but i think e result and ending should be not tt good.. coz last time i not sensible enough.. kind of childish.. and not stable enough.. so e chance of hurting u confirm is high.. but anyway i think now together.. i promise i already a changed person.. and i hope to have a stablelised relationship.. and i will kick all e bad habits.. becoz i am not playing this time.. =) whoever reading this blog please be my witness and give me your blessing okie.. thanks.. if find me in some trouble.. please remind me to be a good boyfriend i promised.. for my part.. i will discipline hard to myself.. and yeah.. my Dear~~ keep that sms i send.. is with law bidding one.. so if u feel i treat u no good show it to me okie.. hehe..

erm.. wat to write about her ar.. eh.. actually there really too much to write about.. far too much.. but i will summarise some interested stuff... ops.. my mid-autumn festival is not alone~~ hehe.. thank to her.. we had a great night at west coast park.. this time.. e shore is ready.. and we spend a romantic and sweet night at e shore.. lie side by side.. and we have such a great evening.. before that we climb to e tallest point at west coast.. yeah.. she did it.. haha.. no phobia to height one.. that my girl!! haha.. then we play flying fox.. nope.. she play only.. too many kids around.. i too embarrased to play on it.. haha.. after having a long chat at e shore.. she took bus home.. sorry wor.. cant send u home.. but this is e only time i never send u home.. frankly speaking.. to all couples.. having a girlfriend living near to u is important.. not say tt far no good.. but.. anyway guys should know wat i talking about.. but i will try to send u home whenever i can okie.. i wont like last time like this again.. ops.. then today.. thursday.. i have a crazy night.. should say both of us.. i leave e school earlier.. and go tuition earlier.. after that i gave my gf a suprise.. i went to her hse and she still thought i having tuition.. hehe.. then i ask her accompany me go have dinner.. then reach vivo and i say wana movie.. coz is like so last minute.. i thought she dunwan as is 8 plus le.. but she say okie lo.. very sudden also a funny thing to do.. haha.. yeah.. we watched invasion.. not a bad movie.. jus ending like not tt good enough.. then after e movie.. i walk her home.. but neither of us wana go home yet.. jus miss each other so much.. then we go to telok blangah hill.. ops.. romantic wor.. my first time there.. hehe.. we have some talks there.. and after hours we go back and i dunwan her to go home yet.. so i bring her for supper at river valley.. for supper.. hehe.. finally 3 am le.. we spend 8 hours jus like this.. omg.. so fast.. times fly ma.. hehe.. but i really very happy.. think i nv make a wrong choice this time.. i take a very long time to consider.. and i know she is e right one this time.. i quite sure about this.. becoz i think i change.. for those who doubts me.. erm.. is okie.. i will prove u all wrong.. maybe i think only you.. not others.. coz my friends will bless me for sure.. and know i changed.. sorry for the last sentence.. i know is very mushy.. but i still wana say to my sweetheart~~ ( i will update e song and pics one.. too tired le)

Monsieur te'amo = Dear I LOVE YOU=)

i am in trouble..

2007-09-16T10:31:00.000-07:00

do u guys remember in my previous posts.. i mention about isit being in a relationship is happier??? erm.. seriously.. e question haunt back.. erm.. i think i got a phobia is getting into a relationship.. and seriously i know i am a bad boyfriend... sorry to my ex-girlfriends.. especially "you".. know you got a special day.. happy for ya~~ thou i know i am a blacklisted in ur heart... okie.. back to it.. now facing e special one.. i duno where am i standing at.. i am scared by e ugliest side of a relationship... wat seem to be beautiful.. but after an "officially" status.. everything seem to change..

back to it.. erm.. currently very busy.. i think all of you also busy ba.. study work study work... haiz.. so siAnz right.. but i manage to get "one" day off a week.. i find this day to go relax.. like this week.. erm.. sat pon work.. then evening go to east coast park.. erm.. e night was great.. long time nv get to there.. real long time.. haiz.. anyway yupz get to a beach restaurant.. and i find the ambience was great.. nice music.. nice good.. and is a candlelight dining enviroment.. after that went for a walk on e beach.. then sit down there for some fun and crazy converstation.. lolz.. too bad.. no license and bike yet.. if not can stay longer.. anyway head home after that.. =)

yupz.. in e end.. another silent night.. i nv break it out.. and i duno if i should... why.. why whenever i make decision over something like this.. "your" shadow is back into me.. when i keep writing this blog.. i was seeing pictures of "you".. memories and memories.. i find it e fact is u not a bad gf.. jus tt both of us really not suitable towards each other.. anyway i really hope someone can guide me out of this.. troubled night..

anyway mid-autumn festival is coming le.. rem last year.. having a great day.. think this year i will be alone~~ anyway show you all my masterpiece.. hehe=)

happy?? sad??

2007-09-09T09:56:00.000-07:00

yoz.. today i can forecast ROM shld having some crowd down there to register ba.. why? becoz it is 09-09.. yupz.. 9 stand for long lasting wor.. 2 years later.. 09-09-09.. think full man!! think i cant by then go ROM coz still young and poor.. hehe.. anyway today quite nice wor.. coz went to dinner with sze li and his gf - xiao jun.. and my date.. haha.. like double date.. but is like lacking smthing.. think becoz jus my date.. not my gf.. ops.. but i like to dine in pairs.. hope E4 shld behave like this.. bring along our dates.. u see.. we have plently to chat abt.. and this is fun.. anyway we having a long conversation about market and shares.. as i planning to enter it.. haha.. jus learn something only.. so involving little risk i hope.. then send her home.. and she really a spy lo.. keep doing things i duno.. Argh!!!

ya.. back home and read someone blog.. ops.. think i am not welcome~~~ but few more days is her bday le.. here i shall using my blog to wish her HAPPY 20TH BIRTHDAY~~ and seeing her doing well.. yupz.. wish her happy ever after~~... anyway thou she writing some negative things against me.. but i shall not do e same.. coz i know i am a jerk.. i admit it!! yupz.. anyway since u doing so good.. i shall not blocking ur ways.. and from now on i will never mention u again.. just treat it i never know u ba.. i know u doing e same thing.. =).. takE CarE..

haiz.. tml going sch again.. so Sianz.. but still must go..gambate nei.. i will strive hard tml!! sure i need to do something.. anyway tml got a napfa training course for me.. good good.. i can train.. lolz.... build myself up.. using this opportunity=)

yepz.. sze finally going in.. one more week of rest.. hope he doing well.. as for me.. half a year to go.. damn it.. but hope i can acheive wat i wan!! PILOT~~~ i will strive for it.. and hope school and attachment faster go thru!!

ps: haiz.. overall is not my day~~ becoz i am bit disappointed.. dun ask me why.. you know=(

EnjoyED yours Young Days!!

2007-09-06T23:34:00.000-07:00

yesterday i pon my school.. thou i wake up very early( wake up at 7 ).. hehe.. but jus dun feel like going.. then i come across a jap drama in crunchyroll.. and this is a show that can make u laugh and cry.. and bring up all my memories.. is GREAT TEACHER ONIZUKA!!! (GTO). I really like this drama lot.. and i learn things from it.. when u wana do something u wan to, dun care about e consequences as it might hinder you; love is not about comparing, love is because feeling; and most important is live everyday up!! and ENJOY when u r youngs... i never regret of playing that much during my secondary life.. and is my best times in my life ( till now).. yeapz.. if you guys wana watch this classic drama again can go to www.crunchyroll.com to register as a member for FREE and search for GTO... real nice!! yupz.. then i watch 12 episode all and i duno i use how many pieces of tissue le.. almost every episode i cried.. but u will understand when u watched it!! after watching it, hope from it i can get some motivation to be happier.. jus like GTO!!

P.s : Will try to change e song with every Post.. will find something nice to match my posting.. like today.. Poison from the dRama!! hehehe EnjoyED~~

around 8, my bro ask me go for a game of basketball.. since nothing much to do.. i join him.. and yes.. luckily i went.. is so fun playing again.. thou i bit rusty le.. but enjoyed those interaction with young lads.. haiz.. seeing them make myself feel " am i old le?? " they are 15 and 16.. memories of secondary days come back.. haha.. and they have good skills.. and of coz got e look.. think they are superstar in their respective school.. hehe.. like me.. ops.. kidding here.. anyway after e game.. went for some chit chat session with them.. and shocked me.. is the world changing that fast.. "there is no such thing call virgin in secondary school" although is bit exaggerating.. but i believe that more and more students during sec school lost it.. i am not against pre-maritial sex.. but isnt it too fast?? and somemore they say is the gal who initiate it.. my god!!! duno shld laugh or cry.. but i think down e road.. when u getting married.. maybe ur wife alr been having a 10-20 guys in her life.. sAd thing right.. but their answer is "Who CArES".. haha.. jus like my topic.. Enjoying their young Days~~

Emo =)(=

2007-09-02T08:43:00.000-07:00

yoz.. yesterdae went over to Sze house for his birthday bash~~~ and a house warming party too as he jus moved his new home.. erm.. went into e room jus feel he has a nice room.. i wish i had one too.. a bed.. and photo of loves one all over the wall~~ and he got a damn romantic corner in e room.. how romantic it is.. erm.. i shall not reveal.. coz i will get one too.. then can have some lovely moment with my loves one.. hehe.. ermZzz... yeah.. then after the buffet dinner at his house.. night E4 went to night activity again.. we went to Geylang.. hehe.. long time nv eat the dou jiang you tian.. thou is not very nice.. but is e ambience and memories that keeps us going.. hehe.. anyway after the tok cock supper.. we went to see the infamous sight of singapore "color" industry.. erm.. jus see only... dun mistake okie.. then we walk into those dark alley to explore the singapore mini IR.. haha.. inside got gambling den.. but of so many tables there.. all is the same game.. Sze and i try our lucks by sharing 10 bucks and we actually won.. haha.. treat it as free supper.. hehe.. then after e geylang trip we got a special guest on our car.. and i think this special guest give all of us especially ah hock a very bad impression le.. erm.. if hock ar. u see this post.. i duno u will happy not.. but frankly speaking.. for me.. i think she not e right one.. not abt e nationality wise.. is abt character and e way she behave.. i kind of fan gan wor.. hope u dun mind i say this.. but i think u deserve someone better.. erm.. yupz.. after pick this special guest.. we went over east coast and play pool.. and of coz.. my skill is getting better and better.. ops.. jus kidding.. but i really enjoy playing pool so much.. went home after that.. damn tired.. and wake up at 11 for my bike lesson.. erm.. dunwan to talk much abt my bike thingy.. fed up.. and i really so siAnz.. sorry for all.. i think i cant get e license as a birthday gift for myself le.. so i think i will take it slowly then.. really so disappointed.. then after that went home for some rest for a dinner date.. hehe=) but this hehe really abit mian qiang.. not becoz of e person i meet.. coz of myself.. bit tired.. and bit emo.. think my emo up again.. and why my emo come le.. coz e ride home in sze car.. the FM play this song... 我是真的真的很爱你 by jerry yen.. this is one of my fav song.. erm.. wat this song really mean.. to me.. erm.. i duno who shld i think when i listen to this song.. e ones i hurt.. e ones hurt me?? in e end i think of few.. haha.. and it make my think whole day~~.. before meeting her for dinner.. i dl some of e jerry song.. and hehe.. i like this song so much too.. 地心引力 (gravity) is a very relax and happy song.. this make my emo up and i feel so light after this song.. unlike " I truly love you" emo =).. anyway when meeting her.. i also kind of quiet in e first place.. i feel bit weird.. duno why.. but break e lock by talking lot again.. dunwan e ambience so weirdo.. sorry.. think today is not my day~~ anyway we have a nice dinner in TCC and thank for listening so much to me.. hehe.. after e conversation.. got a bad impression over me le right.. still got time for u to regret.. haha.. but e whole night.. kind of suprised is i know u actually so soft hearted.. is not a bad thing but i mean erm.. u actually break and patch.. yupz.. really silly~~ i mean if for someone deserved still alright.. but ----> him?? erZZzz.. no comment le.. yeapz.. this fact stun me.. and i kind of behave so diff but after e long walk to ur hse.. i nv think much.. but reach home i think again.. haha.. too bad u cant online.. but anyway is past.. jus take it as a lesson ba=) erm.. really enjoyed walking u home.. e distance not long not short.. jus nice.. enough to have some funny talks.. =) okie le.. tml onwards i will be schooling le.. jia you for me~~

Crazy ME~~

2007-08-30T09:33:00.000-07:00

halo.. the following day till my next paid.. will be very "lun" for me.. meaning very broke.. becoz dun left much=( very jialat.. coz went to see a skincare doctor.. referal from my friends.. heard is good.. so bring along ah hock go together.. is so far lo.. tampines.. from clementi all e way=( but hope its work on my skin and bring my confidence up again.. hehe.. and know wat??? we reach 7.40 like this and current queue no. is 3.. our number is 40 and 41... we were told that waiting time is at least 2 hours.. fine.. i expected it.. coz my friends already say will be waiting for around tt time.. so i and ah hock go to central again.. we walk around.. and talk lot of cock.. then went in arcade and play.. after an hour plus.. went to take bus and go back.. zhun zhun 9.40 we reach there.. and wth.. no. is 19 only.. not even half.. omg.. then both of us sit there and keep talking.. no. still going very slow.. wait there for an hour again.. then go to find something for our dinner.. very hungry la.. *drool~~ prata le.. so long nv eat... miss those at nus nearby.. find one time must go eat with E4 again.. hehe.. then finally 11.30pm le.. our turn.. and after some detailed talks with DR. Ong... i really hope she can help.. i mean the products can.. then went to pay e bills.. heart pain.. hope can help.. please~~ sobz.. after spending the money and 4 hours of waiting.. i think over is worth it!! --- result will be seen in 2 months.. =)

after that i dun think there is any bus or mrt to bring us to boat quay.. yupz.. boat quay.. coz we going for a drink... balanced full bottle.. and is sze bday.. thou only 3 of us..but there a suprise party at his hse this sat.. haha.. yeah~~ then we take cab down and he actually eating a plate of cockles on his own.. and he ordered half cooked... "yao si" lo.. his health not tt good still dare to eat like this.. but he say his bday.. suan le.. dun say him le.. then 3 of us go to e pub.. and starts drinking and singing and playing and of coz.. keep talking cock.. haha.. too bad ming and jimmy is not here.. haiz.. but is okie.. sat one more party.. erm.. duno why in the pub bit empty tonight.. haiz.. think only i know the answer.. anyway in e end.. none of us drunk.. think we really improves on our drinking.. haha.. but i shall not drink too much in future.. must not sleep late as i need to take care of my face.. lolz.. anyway after drinking we on our way to take cab.. and we take lot of picture.. haha.. lolz.. will be upload here.. yeapZZ... dun scare pls.. coz we got our funky side.. everyones has it too.. haha... HAPPY BIRTHDAY SZE!!! (To someone in concern :"dun worry nia.. wont upload "you" in my blog one.. only can view solely by me!! hehe")

PLEASE ENJOY THE PICS~~

enjoy the video

We not gay.. just 借位=）haha

same here.. but i suspect they out.. haha

funny??

crazy!!

serious!!

doggy lover=)

am i gay?? guess it urself.. haha but u nv my lips never on his face.. SWEAR!!

NeW Start, nEw LIFE!!

2007-08-26T11:07:00.000-07:00

hi everybody.. first i would like to announce something i really proud of.. i think i really a good pool player.. lolz.. sorry for the cocky tone.. but i really think i play well.. why i said that?? becoz i won a mini competition in pub.. and the prize i won for my buddies is a bottle of Chivas.. ROck it baby~~ hehe.. yeah.. so i would like to shun bian drop a message.. really like to know more pool friends.. no matter u r guy or gal.. if u like to have a game and fun.. drop me a message.. please.. i like to meet new players.. okok.. stop here for e pool thing.. lolz

yoz.. today topic.. new start.. yupz.. next week will start my FYP le.. siAnz.. super stress.. hope be able to complete it and go attachment and F***ing leave the School.. yeah.. i wana start all over again.. and hope i will be a normal ZH live A normal like.. and have some normal DATE.. and yeah.. live my life normally.. haha.. say till like this.. like in the past.. i am abnormal.. maybe.. ops.. anyway i getting on smoothly..

another saturday night for me.. haha.. actually i really really very very tired.. coz friday after work.. went to e pub.. and drink.. yeah.. tat e night i mention abt e pool thing.. anywya drank till 5 am.. and sleep ar ard 7.. then wake up at 10 am.. to go work.. after work.. thinking of going home.. but went to meet "her" haha.. not tired anymore.. went to vivo.. and had a long discussion of wat to eat.. so indecisive for me huhz.. hehe.. in e end we walk into "Thai Accent".. is a nice place.. ambience not bad except of e noise level.. and e food not bad.. hehe.. had some childish act in e restaurant.. so childish for us.. but nvm.. i enjoyed it.. and have fun~~ yeah.. that me.. i dun give a damn to ppl around me.. haha.. the ambience of it let me decide shld i treat my birthday dinner in this restaurant as my family all like spicy food.. erm.. still deciding.. anyway go for a walk at level 3.. thinking of some past.. but keep laughing make me not tt emo.. and i think i laugh too much.. shld be in a serious look.. if not "you" foreva think i am kidding and joking around and childish.. erm.. i got to mention.. i am serious at times.. and when e time arrive in near future.. dun treat i kidding okie =).. had a short night.. as i really tired.. so we went home after e dinner.. kkz.. tml needa wake up to go see doc.. hope e doc good.. if not god.. please.. cure my face.. i dunwan live like this.. my confidence is so so low lo.. haiz~~

sAtuRDay nIght~~

2007-08-19T01:07:00.000-07:00

what e hell.. a super big rain nearly spoil my day~~ before work.. my jeans and shoes already wet till can squeeze a bucket of water out~_~ feeling so sucks... and my workplace super cold lo... the management staff think we are airpork from austrailia?? is like freezer there.. lucky i got a blazer with me~~ think is really bad luck these 2 days.. coz friday when i go for my bike lesson also raining.. and i got an accident (stupid indian rider) i seriously think tt rider shld not ride anymore.. the basic is damn jialat.. i think even if he got the license.. he will be really dangerous.. haiz~~ lucky i din injured myself.. wooh~~ then during fri night working.. i placed a wrong bet.. wth.. my FIRST time.. shit~~ and so.. when i got back to work during sat.. got myself a 8 days suspension.. luckily.. so lucky.. i was gifted with my speech.. and i got myself a reduced sentenced.. haha.. 4 days only.. wohohoho~~ hope it will be my first and only dispute.. *Angry... hehe.. but after the reduced sentenced.. and thinking of having a wonderful saturday.. i keep the fire of anger.. and ready for a wonderful saturday night~~

countdown to 5.45 pm.. and there it goes.. packed my bag.. changing and on my way for the fireworks and sat night movie.. hehe.. then recieve a msg~~ "sorry i will be late" ops.. i shall take my own sweet time.. reach city hall.. wow.. everywhere is packed... so i think i shall find somewhere for my dinner.. new york new york come to my mind.. but wth.. e queue so long.. thai express not e option.. asian kitchen ate before le.. erm.. city link also not much option for me.. had an U turn.. and walk back to Sakae sushi~~.. queue again.. but ok la.. saturday ma..

finally have my seats but someone still yet to reach wor.. wait and wait and wait~~~( finally reach le.. and panted.. suan le.. forgive you since you got a reasonable excuse~~ ) friends and bro are waiting for me at esplanade for the firework.. but that doesn't affect the relaxing conversation and dinner... think we are crazy.. keep talking bullshit.. but fun.. dun need to put on e mask and tell everyone: i am a faked matured.. i mean i not childish but shld be myself.. i am jus a easy person.. wana to joke around and have fun~~ yupz.. duno is shy or wat..both of us nv really ate much... and we take a fast walk to marina there.. because of some false information( bro tell me start at 8.30) i nv go to meet my friends and brother.. but in e end. stand 45 mins then it start.. but worth it la.. during e wait.. got a guessing song game.. haha.. nxt time you shall bring ur mp3 and let me guess the song.. SCREAMING TIME~~~ wow.. yeah.. hohoho~~ 很美hor... lolz.. everyone is shouting and i shouted too.. haha.. crazy me~~ a 15 mins long firwork is so mesmerizing.. especially e one gold in color with dazzling effect after blooming... ops.. we gona late for e movie.. rush to cine for "license to wed".. we only got 20 minutes to rush from city hall to somerset~~ in e end we miss a 2 mins starting.. haha.. okie.. e movie is hilarious with a nice moral behind.. i shall comment much abt e movie~~ see it yourself ba=) oh.. and that end my day~~~ no no~~ not yet... ( gona fly kite by my friends) so send her home and i shall go home to rest early too.. hehe.. wow.. got a long walk to her house.. and a breezing and eerie feeling.. coz near huang na hill..ops.. no offence.. anyway reach home also nv sleep early... coz chat in msn till late night again.. this come to e end of my sat night...

long time no see

2007-08-16T00:28:00.000-07:00

oh.. it seems like it been a long long time since my last post... sorry for my laziness... hee... afteraLL, been happening some incidents in between.. happy ones.. and sad ones.. k.. let starts....

finally.. my semester 1 of this final year has officially ended.... yeah.. last 3 weeks of school can say a nightmare to me... must chiong 4 projects.. but luckily everything done in time.. and i proud to say i do it myself.. e best is the embedded project... i actually make a digital clock with alarm feature... is not easy lo... hehe.. i did it!!! afterall, this sem really disaster... make no friends.. and i fighting alone... but this make me stronger... and next sem will be the FYP and attachment.. hope the 24 weeks go thru and i am freed... yeah!! looking forward~~~

during this period.... i think i make some mistake... sorry to u.. but i know u will think my apology is nothing.. anyway i meant it... whether u choose to accept.. i cant force you... but wish u will be happy from now on~~~ tAkE CarE.... i shall not talk much le...

pathetic... my this month paid is so PATHETIC... shit man.. luckily got some extra income... hope can tahan this pathetic month...and must not keep pon my work le... siAnz... lifeless... and the bike lesson give me troubles siA... keep doing bad on U Turn.. this month really abit down... but luckily the firework during national day night make me feel so so much lighter... a beautiful night.. with such beautiful firework... nice movie.. and nice conversation...nice joke.. =)) lolz... although pocket very light this month but still must enjoy to relax my nerves... so went to drink with E4... finally been such long time to meet SZE LI... so happy... finally... haha.. that night i have a couple of drinks... and think i drunk... lolz.. sing and listen to some emo songs... haiz... a mixed feeling come in again... do something so implusive... nope.. i dun consider it implusive.. i jus afraid if i dun make e move.. i will be regretted~~~ hope i make e right decision... bless me... ya.. the one up there... bless me please.. okok..afterall this month is mixed with some wonderful and sad things... overall quite satisfy.. coz i settle my sch stuffs.. jus hope i won regret of making some decisions... hope september will be a better month.. for everyone... update again=))

Cupid shoot me please=(

2007-07-30T10:47:00.000-07:00

lolz.. long long time nv come here le.. first.. nothing much to update about.. everything e same.. and abit busy.. okok.. nxt week will be my last week of the semester and hopefully.. everything is on e right track.. my this semester will get thru and head to my last sem.. wth.. FYP and attachment shld be better than studying.. and hope by october... i can get my 2B license and my bike so i can go school or attachment easier and hope by e time i can get a lovely lady by my side.. haiz.. i really miss out many ones coming my side.. but also happy for them.. coz if i am the one.. i might not make them happy.. so believe they will have their love ones being their sides and happily ever after~~ hehe.. anyway for me now.. hope this sem over.. "dream" come true.. and hope cupid can shoot me soon.. haha.. kidding=) ok la.. will updated soon for my bikey and relationship side~~ haha..

waKe up From m DreamzZZ.. and go on fRom There~~

2007-07-07T13:08:00.000-07:00

Give up.. Totally.. i can sense it everything just not getting the way i wana but anyway~~ is over~~ so no point hanging on it and should move on~~ so wat the big deal~~ anyway is quite a harsh slap to wake me up.. since i "woke" up le.. no point keep thinking and end up myself at the dead corner~~ haha~~ i wana move on and now main piority is to get my bike license.. and end this semester.. so everything i think will go on smoothly le.. everytime see ppl ride their bike past thru me with the "Vroom Vroom" sound.. i am so envious.... think nothing but the license and my own bike~~ haha.. jia you for myself!!!

p.s: wish that you will be happy and the dream of urs will be a real sweet one~~

DaRk, Darker and Darkest~~~

2007-07-03T06:34:00.000-07:00

ARGH!!! going to mad.. today i failed my bike Assessment~~~ Sianz... think i am going to get a delay.. not sure whether i can get the license and my bike by my birthday not.. haiz.. really siAnz.. when i warm up my bike still okie one.. but when come to the real assessment.. haiz.. duno why nowadays so easily get distracted and feeling so restless... anyway hope i will get out of these mess soon~~~

back home after the disappointment and tuition.. i was damn tired~~ first thing to do is On my com and listen to some music.. wooh.. so relax... anyway notice my blog.. there 6 songs uploaded... and there is one common thing of all these songs.. all are Emo ones.. hehe... first is Twins's 我很想爱他，Ekin's 仍能情深爱上， Daniel Chan's 我愿意 and 比我幸福， Alex fong's 好心好报 and 在你遥远的附近。Feel free to click on any songs.. erm.. the auto-play one is the Twins one because is a chinese song... Ekin and Alex one is Cantonese songs.. and i highly recommend the Ekin's 仍能情深爱上 and Alex's 在你遥远的附近. sometime i feel myself very weird.. feel so down le still listen to Emo songs.. but i jus like it.. maybe this is the time i feel i am myself.. hehe.. anyway below will be the lyrics of 在你遥远的附近 because out of the above song.. i think this song is jus like how i feel now~~~

当知道近期
抑郁的你给那一个人当后备
从来也未咬着牙关生气
难道你错爱他到没救药余地
心飞到旧地
想起跟你别离亦没那么伤悲
仍然妒忌但仍然关心你
无奈我约你总要避
太上心~~~
曾经与你散步过几公分
就算一公分相差千里也胜过别人
如何令我不担心

*傻到要住到你的新居附近
看着你凌晨还何以未关灯
若这刻你那手机微震
是否可感到我体温
和你远或近仍像终身情人
告别了也共你同渡余生
往事远记忆近我仍然未死心
难甘心遥望你被人热吻当

知你后来跟他恩爱突然明白我的悲哀
无论远近共时光怎比赛
难道我与你未分开

Repeat *

仍紧随你喜与悲
我问良心未算分离
仍如他和我可以比
我为何敢为你生气

repeat *

仍紧随你喜与悲
我问良心未算分离
仍如他和我可以比
我为何敢为你生气
除非流失几世纪
纵隔着他未算疏离
离开才不舍不弃
跟你面对却没法亲你
这样近却像隔千里
你有事我定会找你

SanTiago MuNeZ!!!

2007-07-02T10:36:00.000-07:00

2/07/07, Sunny

yeah.. today my feeling just like the weather.. because i am out to meet my poly buddies.. "Baihakki"--- my group name in poly... long time nv see them le.. and both of them are going to NS soon.. wish them all e best... anyway meet in town today to enjoy a long looking forward movie --- GOAL 2!!! but end up abit disappointed... because the movie really abit fake.. lolz.. anyway i still like it because is a movie about passion and football!!! Santiago Munez~~~ thou is a fake player but he is one of my fav player for now.. haha.. after the show went to dine in pasta mania.. had a marina and a Hawaiian pizza~~ delicious.. long time never eat le.. and it end my day~~ hope when they NS we will still keep in contact and hope the friendship last~~~ Take CAre Bro~~

p.s: haiz.. finally i think i somehow knock down in the junction le.. somehow my day end with some sadness~~~

walking dayZzzzz

2007-07-01T01:14:00.000-07:00

july 01, cloudy

ops.. today Government will start to impose an additional 2% GST on our daily life le.. haiz.. our expenses rising again~~ ARGH... wat make me angrier is because i am PR.. i cant get the GST offset package... wth.. is it mean PR don't need to pay e additional 2% GST ?? anyway thinking of it really make me **** up...

yesterdae saturday... suppose to work.. and yeah.. PON work againz.. lolz.. but this time really because of my buddy.. he 1st ever book out since enlisted 2 weeks ago.. except for his botak.. i really cant see any differences from him.. his beer belly sttill as big as b4.. lolz.. but really long time never see him le.. and he and another idiot keep physco me not to go work.. xin ruan le.. so accompany them.. and is a really long long long dayz.. we went to beach road in e morning.. buy his army stuff.. and at there i really scare off by so many botaks.. so ask ah hock accompany go somewhere eat and wait for him to finish his "shopping"... during my lunch.. somehow get a little bit emo.. because i saw some couples eating.. of coz.. the male lead all are botak.. i wonder during my next march NS life.. will i be attached.. and will my gf stand by me like these girls i see... nowadays alot of my friends will say.. haiz.. what for getting a gf when u going NS.. she will somehow left u.. actually i somehow agreed to it.. but i think i shldnt blame the girl side.. becoz can u think that the hardship of waiting someone.. and when at the late night u wana have a shoulder and a pair of listening ears e most.. ur guy is not there.. the gal is alone outside.. and e one who suffer e most i think is the gal.. NS men.. after a long day of training will have no time and too tired to think of anything.. and the most important is trust.. and the 缘份 between both of u... i always feel if both of u meant to be together will be together.. so wat the point of worrying so much?? so if there someone appear to be e gal.. i will not hesistate to be together.. even if someone told me.. " during NS both of u will spilt"....

back from the emo stuff.. then after having a quick lunch.. start my walking journey from beach road to dobby ghaut.. and have my fav past time.. POOLING.. hehe.. then at this time.. out of my suprised.. someone date my army friend - jimmy~~ lolz.. i cant believe it.. and jimmy keep asking me shld i go.. of coz i say yes.. shldnt reject a lady.. then i know there a NDP preview today.. and there will be a firework tonight... first to come to my mind ------ ??? lolz.. but too bad.. she already had a date..(hope that a chance) so i and ah hock walk jimmy to his date.. and the moment i saw his date.. i am kind of.. erm.. shldnt be so bad.. i mean just somehow understand why jimmy will hesitate of meeting her up... lolz.. ok.. now left with ah hock and me.. we walk around.. and end up at the library@esplanade.. first time there.. very kuku hor.. then we find ourselves a nice view toward the sea and wana wait for the firework to come.. but suddenly i have a kind of feeling.. really feel i shdnt watching e firework alone.. i rather not watching it.. so i pull ah hock with me and start to walk againz.. from esplanade back to town.. we walk and chat and walk and chat.. so long nv been like this le.. too bad he is not a gal.. lolz.. jus kidding.. walking for so long.. and jus when we reaching orchard.. have this kind of feeling.. will i get to see her?? so silly.. thou orchard not really big.. but u think there really so easy to bang against each other??... then walk around here and there.. and my friend.. ah ming.. come to meet us.. and e jimmy end his date and join us too... ( so bad of him.. never send girl home.. not gentleman enough) then we had our dinner.. and walk around town againz.. by this time.. my leg really so pain.. but bo bian.. then found ourselves in borders.. coz is the only shop open till late.. and i so shocked jimmy bought a novel... omg.. he claim that reading e novel can kill his bore but i think e novel shld be his sleeping pills ba.. so many words.. haha.. anyway he is going back to tekong le.. wish him all e best!!!

that end my day.. a tiring day.. in e end.. e silly thinking of mine really never come true.. i really 傻得可以~~ lolz.. thought tonight really very tired.. but i realise the brotherhood of my friends still there... i miss you all.. everytime when i emo.. with you all around.. troubles-free.. hehe.. E4 = Eternity 4eva... i know you all still remember~~

Jimmy!! trying to act cool~~ faint

is the poster scary or he himself???

Is he cute?? my buddy--Milton(ah hock)

alone seeing this fountain.. if someone beside me.. how nice it it.. *slaps... dreaming againZzz

Mood swing day~~

2007-06-28T10:40:00.000-07:00

long time been so down like today.. and also duno why will come here and write my 2nd post within a day.. think i really no one to share my emotion.. hehe.. come here at least can let some of my emo go.. but cant say everything ba.. coz blog is not diary.. still must have privacy.. lolz.. anyway also duno why so down.. perhaps been thinking alot toward something.. and it feel like trapping inside a maze.. cant figure out things..

if you have notice.. my msn currently is " I'm in E middle of the junction againz " wat is this junction about.. think only some of you will know ba.. but the first thing ppl tend to come to mind is love ar.. relationship kind of thing.. to be frank.. is something to do with it.. but kind of bother by myself too.. think i should really no point in thinking so much.. actually e more important thing is i jus worried that i will knock down in the junction.. haha.. so i must really wait for the green light~~ and walk safely..but as we know.. junction will lead to alot of exits... will it be e right path for me?? i don't know~~ but i rather wait and wait.. or rather dun move also cant risk to be walk to the wrong direction or get injured by dashing... so let jus wait for answer by god ba.. sometime i really believe the one in the sky got the final said.. one of my friend keep telling me "do something , do something!!" before today i will say i am doing~~ but after writing this post.. i think doing wat things also useless~~ because claps need both hands.. i really very restless~~ sorry that i cant continue.. i shall had an early night and let the nature take place ba~~

28/6/07

2007-06-28T01:13:00.000-07:00

Thursday, sunny

today wake up le, so boring... but wana chiong the drama i currently watching.. called "Heart of Greed". is a hong kong drama and i can gave 2 thumbs up!! i especially like the part of a love story... i start to understand to love someone is really dont need any status.. jus be a guardian angel.. seeing e one u love happy is enough le.. but say is always easier than done.. can i be a guardian angel who so selfless..

watch half way then recieve a news from my friend.. duno should i say is a good news not.. but i should be happy for my friend.. she found a job le.. and don't need to always rot and bored at home.. but once she works le i think will be quite busy le ba.. erm.. anyway should be happy for her.. hope she doing well ba=)

Is A Double "S" day in my Life

2007-06-25T22:24:00.000-07:00

25/06/07

Is a Day i will be remember in the year 2007... because i finally understand the true meaning of 人包铁... being a future rider myself.. i kinda worried my life is really very dangerous.. but luckily... the minor accident of mine is happen during the learning process..
Although is a minor one.. but the very second when i going to skid with my bike.. my mind is blank and i really really SCARE... is a scariest thing other than young time sit on roller coaster.. because you duno wat will happen.. and how to land safely.. and actually you don't have time to think.. the next second i know wat happen.. is already lying on e floor.. bike falling on my leg.. and my shoulder bleeding.. and this will be a scar to remind me to becareful in my remaining life.. someone told me that a guy which some scares look MAN.. and i feel to be MAN or being safe in my whole life.. i will choose safe.. this time round i should be counted lucky to be in an accident in the circuit.. if "choy", i happen to have the same accident.. skid from a wet road when i ride on expressway or even the normal road??? wat will be the ending.. there no one help me.. and probably a car behind cant stop in time and crush into you.. we all knows these happens.. everyday.. just that who is unlucky spotted by the death God.. is really a scary experience.. and i really pray hard this will be my first and last time i occur an accident..

erm.. wat it meant to be a Double "S'... the first one is a Scary day right.. the 2nd "S" shall be a sweet day.. lolz.. anyway i shall thank someone who help me change my dressing which i think is really a sweet thing.. jus hope i nv bored her day.. by talking lot.. hehe.. i jus enjoy chatting=)) and got to thanx another person.. Mich.. you ar.. sometime very di siao.. but anyway nxt time shall be my treat.. thou e food there so-so.. but can dine in a scenery with 2 pretty girls.. is another sweet thing too.. hehe.. i shall say till here.. if not later others will come and ask me alot of question againz.. =(

p.s: jus to remind a 19 yr old gal shld not nag too much.. lolz.. jus kidding.. but i appreciate it alot.. haha.. and i think you got e potential to work as a nurse.. not your skill but ur smile... think e patient handled by you will feel very xin fu ba.. hehe..

=)

2007-06-20T06:43:00.000-07:00

Wednesday le.. 5 more days will be my school reopen.. haiz.. hate to go back school.. but do i have a choice?? hehe.. anyway this few days down make my mood turn better.. firstly went to KL for a short trip=) then today my friend PASSED HER TP... lolz.. so happy for her.. thou she only "just" manage to pass with 18 points.. haha.. she was so so lucky.. but blessing she make it!! Congrat!! hehe.. I told her is the power of the Crane.. the crane give her all the luck she needed and she pass 2 obstacles in 4 days.. Salute~~~ seeing her so happy and the smile from her... lolz.. is it to get your very own license really so wonderful?? motivation for me too.. can i make it too?? think i also must fold one crane when i go for my TP.. but still days for it to happen.. and all the drivers and riders out on e road.. my friend really a very sotong blur queen.. next time when she on the road better watch out.. lolz.. jus kidding=)) anyway hope she will be on her mood again and don't feel so down le.. because she has so many friends around her and there will not be an ending for her for any circumstances.. smile k=))

back to my KL trip.. this trip i like figure out something but don't really know figure out wat?? blur right.. lolz.. me too.. but this trip quite wonderful.. very budget one but i buy some nice clothes and a pair of jeans.. hehe.. sianZ.. still haven go to KLCC and the Eyes on malaysia.. haiz.. think not fated to go yet ba.. nxt time.. nxt time i sure go.. and hope beside me got a lovely girl accompany me le.. hehe.. enjoying and relaxing trip with my bro, sis and a good friend... think my friend had nothing to complain beside eating too much.. haha.. any friends who wana go KL can ask me along.. free accomadation and can eat alot of nice foods.. haha.. looking foward to go in but not so soon.. hope december or nxt chinese new yr can go in.. so many relative there cant visit all this time.. sorry about it hope nxt time go in can try to..

and ya.. beside e above mention.. i was back to cantonese pop trends le.. thanx to my friend.. who intro me 自欺欺人, and i really like it.. then searching other like 好好恋爱, 十分爱, 耿耿于怀 and etc.. and listen to music is not really jus about listening.. u must know wat it singing about.. for e above mention song.. all are quite sad.. and eventually make me emo.. especially 自欺欺人.. really make me think alot of thing about relationship.. not past one.. but future.. really don't hope that rs will turn sour and one day will like wat e song sing.. is damn SAD... and really think canto pop is the best.. beside the music is so nice.. the story of the song is better.. R&B.. i gona say bye bye le.. hehe.. listening to canto songs beside making me emo also make me think back of the ZH i used to be.. i really change alot.. and is to the worse.. hate myself sometime.. and really lost the one i used to know.. where is he.. lolz.. we tends to blame this and that.. but ask urself a simple question.. is it because u never learn from ur mistakes?? if someone ask me this.. i will put up my both hands and say yes... i NEVER... but i like to find ZH back..

just hope my mood will get better and better.. gambate!! wish everyone happily living his/her life and smile from everyone..=))

I wana get a RESTART

2007-06-11T10:21:00.000-07:00

first of all.. is the song nice??? the version i listen at first is a Cantonese version... maybe i am a cantonese that why i still prefer the canto version but for the sake of you i post the english version... i like this song rythem alot.. but e story of e song nv really happen to me before.. is about those god bro and god sis love and relationship thing.. i refering to the cantonese version i mean.. anyway if u all wana know why i like the canto version can ask from me.. good thing is meant to share.. lolz.. after listen to the song... getting bit emo againz... but not moody.. my mood is good.. and think of wana to get a restart=) feel my life been dead.. why life is dead.. coz no aim.. no friends.. no life.. haha.. i am not exaggerating.. nowadays after work and school i head home.. and doing nothing.. but yesterdae after work.. went to ate with my colleague.. and after that we went to starbuck to chit chatting.. is so nice.. and i think friends are really important in life.. and got to know a new one.. haha.. sometime really think am i anti social??? i dun think so.. coz my impression to other shld be friendly ba.. haha.. anyway hope my life is like my computer.. when i click to restart.. i can get a restart in life and do everything againz.. my aim now is to complete my poly and get my bike license and get to let me know a nice galz.. ops.. sorry.. for e above is short term target ba.. then as for friends.. haiz.. my buddies are so so busy.. think must open my circle of friends le.. to get around with more ppl but think i gona kick out e habit of clubbing le.. coz i feel gal who dun club is sweeter.. haha... and for life.. to get myself occupied is important..

anyway now going to 2am and i so tired~~ think i go sleep le.. will come back in short time=)

=(

2007-06-06T11:39:00.000-07:00

ahhhh~~~ jialat... paid day come but i cant find smile on my face.... first of all.. this month no tuiton income=( and prev blog rem?? i plan to buy a bike.. that why everything must start to save and save le.. entertainment must cut down on it.. e.g dont say clubbing le.. coz confirm will stop clubbing for sometime... entertainment like movies, dinner and outing will cut down... or maybe completely shut myself at home... so i think i will miss someone out of my life le.. and nowadays like nv really contact with her... sobz.. =( haiz.. SEE... to achieve something... will tend to sacrifice something too.. nothing is perfect in this world... but dunwan say goodbye to her... duno she know who is she not.. lolz.. anyway i got an answer for my prev blog le.. after much consideration and thoughts.. i finally decided on my future ride will be phantom!! haha.. thou i like sport bike.. but maintainence is a problem.. and the pillion also limit to ladies as the pillion seat is so small.. haha.. i like the speed of SP, KR... but most important is $$... i going NS soon.. so i cant keep paying for a bike i got to keep maintain = pay $$$... so phantom is a better option.. hope my 2A license will be a sport bike ba.. anyway end of it.. my life is just getting boring and boring.. who shall come across it and lead me to rainbow=)))

Secret Revealed~~

2007-05-27T10:53:00.000-07:00

haiz.. once again.. is prove that i am not a lip-sealed person.. lolz.. my suprise was well known by alot of my friends.. haha.. anyway the birthday present for myself is to get my 2B license and buy a bike before my birthday.. think is achievable.. but since so many ppl know le.. jus might as well say it out here.. now start to save my every cent... so certain things must cut down.. clubbing is the first.. and entertainment like movie and dinners.. haiz.. but bo bian.. i hardly save.. so must plan my budget well..

and from the day i start learning bike.. start to know more about bike.. i mean getting more interested... keep asking friends how to ride.. wat to notice.. and about bike.. is which bike nice.. how to maintain it.. etc.. and now thou still early to say whether i can pass it soon.. but already thinking of buying which kind of bike.. should it be economic one.. like Kup Kia.. Cool ones like KR or SP.. or retro and stable like Phantom... headache.. and now i finally know that being tall is not always an advantage.. at least when riding sport bike i had a problem.. coz my leg too long.. so this might be a consideration of whether to buy sport bike.. and another thing is sport bike maintainence high.. still thinking.. anyway all bikes need $$ so must continue to work hard.. save more and learn faster.. jia you!!

Long time No See =)))

2007-05-17T20:36:00.000-07:00

Sigh~~ nowadays quite BZ... rush for my school works and working.. when reach home.. already too tired to blog le.. but ones cannot be so lazy... now in school.. during breaktime think come here update update~~ hehe... oh.. is mid May le.. so fast right.. and during this May.. i guite glad things happening around.. firstly is MANCHESTER UNITED FOOTBALL CLUB is the Champions of EPL 2006/07!!! Tomorrow is FA CUP final between MAN U and CHELSEA.. of coz as a Man U fans.. i hope Man U can get a Double to marks the comeback of Devils again.. but nevertheless a Fair game is much more important.. hope both team will bring more excitment to us!! yeah.. anyway if ah hock ar.. if you reading my blog.. see wana meet to watch the final not.. how can we miss this game of the year!! lolz..

today after school.. glad there is no work.. but bad news is Sat and Sunday.. working like hell!!! haiz.. weekend completely burn.. still intend to meet HF out for dinner one.. but think she also busy chionging her drama and online shopping ba.. lolz.. think this week cant get to see u le.. after a hell weekend.. next week is another start for me.. been under some secret plot.. ops.. lolz.. just preparing a birthday present for myself this OCT... hope by my birthday i able to complete my target!! sorry for being so secretive.. but wana be a suprise for my friends and family~~ lolz.. hehe.. yupz.. only a few ppl know only.. pls keep quiet okie!! haha..

okok.. as my plan undergoing.. $$ are very very important.. so must try to save more $$ and plan my budget real well.. got few aspects for me to have my $$ on.. first is my this sem school fees.. then is my short trip to Malaysia this august~~ and lastly is my secret present for myself.. haha.. on top of that i must deduct every month expenses like my bills.. entertainment allowance for myself.. and transport concession.. think must try to limit myself with those seduction and tempting shopping evil!!! HF better don't influence me~~ haha.. i know i can stand firm and will not be drawn to the " dark " forces.. haha.. but saving is not enough.. now my school workload is lighter.. think must find another part time to expand my income.. wana work in New Urbanmale one.. but my complexion getting worse.. siaN.. think must try to wash my face more and hope by june i can work there.. anyway please dun think i am gay.. i am perfectly normal.. just that work in NUM giving relaxing feeling.. and i got e motivation to train my body hard!! lolz.. anyway my aim not become arnauld.. just wana my body in better shape.. and healthy of coz~~

okok.. time for my short term target~~1. maintain my school attendance 2. keep up my gyming 3. undergoing my secret bday present 4. Save $$ and find one more part time 5. complexion better!!
lolz.. cant too greedy.. short term target must be challenging and achievable.. so that it.. target till this august.. jia you to myself!!

Disappointing moment~~~

2007-05-07T11:31:00.000-07:00

first of all.. is really been suck to get the disappointing feeling~~ i am damn f*** up... haiz... my taipei trip has officially delcare unsuccessful le.. due to all kinds of reasons.. but is useless to complain... anyway a share of $$ are saved down.. and will try to save more... think taipei trip will be postponed till next year march if possible.. before my NS.. i sure wana go holidays either HK or taipei... no Malaysia.. Because Malaysia is such near place.. when wana go also can.. but hk or taipei must plan well.. and must book in advance to get best offers.. too bad lo.. but anyway is already finalised.. wat can i say??

think september my one week short break.. will tour malaysia.. just wana get myself relax.. plan to tour down from penang.. to Redang island.. then from there go to KL for shopping trip.. lolz.. maybe will cancel off penang.. but as i said.. Malaysia so near.. by then plan also can.. jus hope can go for a short break overseas... today really quite disappointing.. no more Taipei trip le.. think must really find friends who are interested.. "HF" you promise to be my tour guide le.. lolz.. honour your words hor.. lolz.. so u faster june go taiwan.. i nxt march confirm ask u to join me one.. if you got read this blog.. now use the chance ask you wana join me september go Malaysia not.. lolz.. maybe in sms i exaggerate.. u also say is hard to plan... but if got the heart.. confirm can find time for it.. you got so many leave to clear also -_-"?! hehe.. think i must go and know a 台妹 soon.. haha.. for subsituition.. in case you cant be my tour guide.. haha=))

from this unsuccessful trip.. i really learn some things.. 1st.. cheap air fares must book asap.. 2nd.. find those as interested as you to join you... 3rd.. nv be the planner unless the one going with you is the one you love( relationship status) 4th.. Brotherhood is phew~~~ won't ever give a serious damn to it anymore except for my tall and cute Hock siong!! 5th.. don't ever hurt the one i love.. if i now attached.. probably thinking only to go holiday with my love one only.. 6th.. get myself a GF.. and cherish her.. probably next march that is someone i holding her hand and walking down the street of taipei!!! looking forward~_~ i will always remember this unsuccessful trip... and the 6 things i mentioned!! really see thru "friends" that true and fako ppl.. i nv say my friends are fako.. but is no more the one i really know.. and serious friendship doesn't exist in some of em'.. anyway lucky still left some.. jus now the 3rd point i list.. except for the "special one" e.g my tall boy... i will still hope to haveyou included in my future trips... maybe when we both have gfs. or family i know you will still at least be e one left behind.... lolz.. happy right.. u know who u r lo.. but serious from this incident.. i can see who are the true one..

anyway anyway.. conclusion is no more taiwan trips for 2007.. unless there is another 50% sales again.. lolz.. and hope my taiwan trip will be fall on next march.. haiz.. hope so.. then september sure sure go KL.. "HF"... go take leave la.. then can go in shopping together.. lolz.. then go redang island enjoy the sun and beach!!! hehe.. must think positive.. thou this disppointing night realli make my sad.. but look forward to redang scenery ba.. ZH!!

P.S : Change my song to Rnb again.. because wana get my mood up again.. don't wana to listen to sad and emo song make me more Sian~~~

05/05/07

2007-05-05T13:42:00.000-07:00

oh~~ 05/05/07 maybe a day to remember.. lolz.. because i finally watched spider man 3.. lolz.. and Man utd win a derby tonight.. this mean Man utd no doubt will become a the King of EPL~~ hehe~~ okok.. just kidding... anyway long time nv go into cinema le.. my last movie is stomp the yard~~ wrote a review here if i not wrong.. lolz.. spider man 3.. wow.. this time got to deal with 3 enemies.. but eventually.. globin(harry) is a kind hearted soul.. just think wrong under his influence of his baddy daddy.. this episode vote him as my fav character.. lolz.. because spider man prove again.. except the god.. everyone is fallible.. the show is fantastic.. but i somehow feel that e computer graphic this time too "computer" le.. lack of natural element.. unlike the first 2 episode.. but anyway the fighting is nice.. and added more emotional part.. not jus keep fighting.. and when MJ and Peter relationship light up... make me feel that every relationship will come to a point which crisis will come automatically... anyway tonight date was a nice and simple one.. here.. i must thank the lady who accompany my saturday night.. HF.. ops.. privacy.. so only short form.. hee=) dine in pasta mania.. haha.. simply miss the pasta=))).. then walk around and wait for the show to start at Cine~~ such a simple date.. but hope more to come.. cause simply feel so suck to always stay home~~ nxt movie.. erm.. any one will do~~ lolz.. hope everyone will enjoy the simple but sweet feeling~~

SpiderMan 3

2007-04-30T07:09:00.000-07:00

Is coming.. finally!!!! one more day.. ops.. to be exact 1 and half hour... spider man 3 will launch officially in Singapore!!! I think this time the movie will bring us up to the next climax.. because this time.. our friendly neighbour got to face not 1 but 3 enemies.. and it is Green globin, Sandman and Venom... COOL!!! i cant wait to go into cinema to enjoy the great sensational effect and the exciting moments from spiderman 3... okiez.. enough of advertising but i really must say if u miss this "movie of the year" you gonna regret.. because only in cinema can bring the esscene from the movie.. the sound effect.. the computer graphics.. and the big screen.. which your house unable to make all these happen!!! So.. now after reading till here.. and watch my preview 7 mins.. go to book your tickets online and as i know.. ticket from may 1st to may5th.. is fully booked.. so happening huhz.. lolz.. so dun wait anymore.. act fast...

爱得太迟

2007-04-27T22:22:00.000-07:00

last time when i blogs at friendster.. my friends will think am i getting emo againz.. now i getting less emo le.. think because been awake and know what i am doing~~.. i think much more postive.. and been thinking to strive hard for things i wanted.. wat i really want? do everyone of you really know the answer? maybe the teens wana to get into good school... or they wana a good relationship.. then e 20s wana work hard.. party hard.. love hard??!! lolz.. anyway the last few post i blog is all abt love~~ maybe ppl think i desperate for a relationship.. but to be much more exact should be i lack of love~~ when i wake up today.. after wash up.. blur blur de sit in front of my com.. then open my iTunes.. and the random pick up this song ---- 爱得太迟 by 古巨基 think most of you never heard before ba.. because is it in cantonese. The rythem not really nice but the lyrics is fantastic.. do you all regret of 爱得太迟??

爱得太迟.. think all of us experience this.. and we always use busy as an excuse.. yupz. no doubt we are busy and we always busy.. but is the dream you making greater than sacrifice the time being with the one love you?? For me.. i regret of spending so less time with my parents.. am i really busy?? yupz.. busy of spending my time with my gf... i mean when i in relationship.. then free i rather work than staying at home... teenager will always feel what the heck of staying home accompany the oldies.. actually parents don't ask for any presents.. not even a hug.. they just feel really contented for you staying by their side and watch their fav tv programs.. when i look back.. i really regret last time spend too much time on my "gfs" which end up with nothing~~ lolz.. isn't it ironic???

爱得太迟.. friends.. yupz.. i not once mention i miss my buddies -- E4 .. last time we always chat non stop and always been crazy doing things like bbq during midnight.. cycling from jurong to sentosa.. basketball during midnight and runaway from police.. until now.. thou some of us work at same place.. but when we sit back together.. less and less things coming out from our mouth.. and i really miss the days.. now we only study and work part time... already like this.. i can't imagine when we in our working days.. or work everyday to strive for our dream.. where will be our friendship lies~~

爱得太迟.. relationship stuff.. for this i can say i never love too late.. and last time i will put this pirority among others.. so for this i nv really have much things to talk about.. i jus regret of not treasure them.. i hardly neglect them.. for wateva time i have i will accompany them.. but maybe the love is not there.. so not even 爱得太迟 because there too little 爱 for them to feel secure enough...

爱得太迟

workind adults might have an excuse.. but don't neglect whatever beside you.. otherwise only regret is left... something can't wait till someday.. when you feel to do it.. just go ahead.. a hug is just nice enough~~ i know we been busy of achieveing things we wana and during the process somethings needed to sacrifice.. but busy is just selfish act.. i don't believe you needed to work for 24/7 and i think even Bill Gate is not that busy.. love needed to be in time.. and sometime even one seconds.. your act of love will become something you regret for life.. don't always say next time.. next time.. and next time.. and the next time always nv come~~maybe the next time is the day u seeing ur love one getting married.. but the one beside is another person.....

this song is nice and like all of you to listen finish.. thou is in cantonese.. below is the lyrics.. hope all of us won't 爱得太迟

我过去那死党

早晚共对

各也扎职

以后没法畅聚

而终于相约到

但无言共对

疏淡如水

日夜做见爸爸刚好想呻

却霎眼看出他多了皱纹

而他的苍老感是从来未觉

太内疚担心

最心痛是爱得太迟

有些心意不可等某个日子

盲目地发奋

忙忙忙其实自私

梦中也习惯

有压力要我得志

最可怕是爱需要及时

只差一秒心声都已变历史

忙极亦放肆见

我爱见的相知

要抱要吻要怎么也好

偏要推说等下一次

我也觉我体质彷似下降

看了症得到是别要太忙

而影碟都扫光但从来未看

因有事赶

日夜做储的钱都应该够

到圣诞正好讲跟我白头

谁知她开了口

未能挨下去已恨我很久

错失太易爱得太迟

我怎想到她忍不到那日子

盲目地发奋

忙忙忙从来未知

幸福会掠过再也没法说中意

爱一个字也需要及时

只差一秒心声都已变历史

为何未放肆见我爱见的相知

要抱要吻要怎么也好

不要相信一切有下次

相拥我所爱又花几多秒这几秒

能够做到又有多少

未算少足够遗憾望掉

多少抱撼多

少过路人太懂估计却不懂爱锡自身

人人在发奋想起他朝都兴奋

但今晚未过你要过也很吸引

纵不信运你不过是人

理想很远爱于咫尺却在等

来日别操心

趁你有能力开心

世界有太多东西发生

不要等到天上俯瞰

Are you ready for love??

2007-04-26T20:24:00.000-07:00

today i clearing my emails, and found one interesting send by my friend... after reading it.. i feel is sound so.. erm.. how can i put it?? anyway i'll like to share with you all.. and for me.. i rather to risk.. remember my prev. post? i say i wana risk to take a bus=) I am ready!! Are you??

When you think of your past love, you may view it as a failure. But when you find a new love, you view the past as a teacher. In the game of love, it doesn't really matter who won or who lost. What is important is you know when to hold on and when to let go! You know you really love someone when you want him or her to be happy, even if their happiness means that you're not part of it. Everything happens for the best.

If the person you love doesn't love you back, don't be afraid to love someone else again, for you'll never know unless you give it a try. You'll never love a person you love unless you risk for love. Love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt, you don't learn how to love.

Love doesn't hurt all the time. Though the hurting is still there to test you, to help you grow. Don't find love, let love find you. That's why it's called falling in love because you don't force yourself to fall. You just fall. You cannot finish a book without closing it's chapters. If you want to go on, then you have to leave the past as you turn the pages.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or won by a single caress.

It is a lifetime venture in which we are always learning, discovering and growing. The greatest irony of love is letting go when you need to hold on and holding on when you need to let go. We lose someone we love only when we are destined to find someone else who can love us even more than we can love ourselves. On falling out of love, take some time to heal and then get beckon the horse. But don't ever make the same mistake of riding the same one that threw you the first time.

To love is to risk rejection, to live is to risk dying, to hope is to risk failure. But risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is risk nothing! To reach for another is to risk involvement, to expose your feelings is to expose true self, to love is to risk not to be loved in return. How to define love: fall but do not stumble, be constant but not too persistent, share and never be unfair, understand and try not to demand, hurt but never keep the pain.

Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart or it can carve wonderful images into the soul that always last for a lifetime. Love is supposed to be the most wonderful feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy and strength. But sometimes the things that give you joy can also hurt you in the end. Loving people means giving them the freedom who they choos e to be and where they choose to be. For all the heartaches and the tears, for gloomy days and fruitless years, you should give thanks, for you know, that there were the things that helped you grow.

Loving someone means giving him the freedom to find his way, whether it leads towards you or away from you. Love is a painful risk to take but the risk must be taken no matter how scary or painful, for only then you'll experience the fullness of humanity and that is love.

Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with desire and tear you apart. Only love can make you cry and only love knows why. If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to take the risk, if you're not ready to feel the pain, then you're not ready to fall in love. There was a time in our lives when we became afraid to fall in love 'coz every time we do, we get hurt, then i figured that's why it's called falling in love.

Sunday=)

2007-04-22T08:50:00.000-07:00

today wake up.. and my head is so heavy.. and e conclusion is i nv go to work.. long time nv off sunday le.. make it a break for myself ba.. after wash-up, sit in front of my computer.. and really nothing for me to do... so went to the tv drawer to search for something that kill time~~ yeah!!! found one long time nv watch le.. it is 每天爱你八小时。 okie~~ this blog should be a review of mine for this movie.. haha.. anyway it give me alot of 启示。i got a urge to really love someone.. anyway let start with this movie...

first movie start with some interesting narrating parts.. "can you remember your shortest relationship?", "which your longest heartbreak?" for me.. my shortest rs is one month.. ops.. and my longest heartbreak.. i think shall make it a confidential.. haha.. then he mention everyday there is 24 hours.. 8 hours of work.. 8 hours of slp and e remaining 8 hours don't know shlould do what.. and the only option is so you gona find a nice looking person.. who will accept you.. both share and love each other to spend the remaining 8 hours.. till here i been thinking then for e past few months.. i am alone and the 8 hours everyday i been doing what.. to be frank.. i am realli bored.. and if this 8 hours everyday can be with someone.. is not a bad idea.. hahaz.. anyway the movie is starring with tony leung, vivian hsu. Tony leung is a art director and had been thru alot of failed rs.. and is fed up with rs anymore.. and e funniest part is all his ex is those who he promote up to become top model and left him... i think he really dun understand girls.. same as me.. ops.. and he met vivian hsu and find her suitable for his new commercial... and become her manager.. at the same time he fall in love with his superior.. think we met alot of this kinda thing in our life too.. duno who to choose for a rs.. and during our dilemma we tend be dilly dally... it is wrong.. but human being is like this.. to find someone to spend the 8 hours is not an easy thing.. inside there a story told by vivian hsu.. a relationship is like waiting for a bus.. when you at the bus stop waiting for the bus.. you will be choosy.. first bus came.. is too packed.. skip the bus.. 2nd bus came.. no air-con.. skip again.. and 3rd bus came.. single decker onli.. skip again.. till late le.. when any bus come.. u jus board it.. and realise you take wrong bus.. but since you spend so much time waiting for bus and is late now.. so you will keep on sitting the wrong bus.. but after sitting for some time.. you realise nv reach home so u drop off the bus and wait another bus.. or u simply walk home and hope the right bus will come.. this really give me some sense.. actually everyone when going into a rs.. will feel it shld be e right one.. but who knows whether is can reach ur house not if u dun try to sit longer... where is my bus... even if it is wrong.. i rather risk it.. haha... anyway alone doesn't mean unhappy... but is sure will lose alot of happiness... coz realli happiness shld be shared.. not alone.. this movie is a nice one.. think some of u shld have watched it before.. if not can lend from me.. good movie shld shared.. jus like happiness... hope you will learn something from this movie too... heheZZ

MaiD in a RS~~

2007-04-12T23:40:00.001-07:00

I not sure everyone listen to this song before? 男佣 by 吴克群 i feel this song very cute.. lovely and sweet.. haha.. maybe most gals will facing a chauvinist boyfriend.. but to me i feel that some guy will still be a gentle one.. but to this extend .. i mean to be the one in this song.. should be some difficulties.. maybe that something guys are born to.. pride.. haha.. but treat your love one good.. should do nothing to pride ba=) anyway the song got some parts really make feel wana be a maid to my future girlfriend... i wana 24 hrs by my love one side.. wana make her laugh.. and lend her my shoulder when she is sad~~ anyway all couple wish the same as me.. who wana your love one to be sad.. right?? everytime i listen to this song.. i feel the sweetness of a relationship.. and i think the song give us a positive attitude to a relationship.. not only guy be the 男佣 but girl must be a maid too=) i mean to give out the best you can to the relationship.. if both can have this positive mindset.. i sure this relationship will work out.. either side jus give all the way and other jus take in completely will not last.. this my thinking.. and last time i been to this kinda thing.. feel real sucks anyway this blog shloud be a happy one.. so don mention those unhappy things..

erm.. how e song?? nice right.. yupz.. for promoting of this song.. i will be putting this song on e moment.. RNB will be closed for sometimes.. lolz.. and later i will upload e lyric on this post.. so you all can see how sweet the song is.. but.. e song is easy to understand.. think don't need lyrics u will know what is it about..

haiz.. talk about this song again.. when i first watch the MTV... and listen really to my heart... i really hope to have e taste of relationship again=) but this kinda thing no rush.. but frankly speaking wana be a good maid to my nxt gf.. please please don't laugh at me... i jus wana my love one to be a princess.. materialistic enjoyment i cant provide.. but i wana be a sensitive and caring 男友 + 男佣 lolz.. anyway really love this song... and 吴克群 songs mostly really remind of my relationship stuff.. like 大舌头，残废，我有罪... sorry.. i not promoting him.. but i like some of this songs.. like 大舌头 is saying someone who wana confess but nervous to spill the 3 words out... haha.. think the next one who i wana confess i will meet this problems too.. ops.. maybe?? who knows.. yupz.. think my confidence is back.. some of you should understand what it means.. haha.. hope i will not fail my next one=) and "让你越过越轻松"

韩剧看太多
你最爱野蛮女友
巴掌巴不够
活该倒楣的是我
怕你哭怕你泪流
怕到朋友唾弃我
我只是你的男佣

路上车太多
司机老吴来接送
健身健不够
还要懂一点幽默
煮饭烧菜你不懂
洗衣擦地的粗活
全部都由我来做

不管你站着坐着趴着
我在你左右
如果你累了酸了瘫了
我帮你按摩
我做你的男佣
一天到晚上工
让你越过越轻松
不管你醒着睡着梦着
我在你左右
如果你气了哭了闷了
我帮你按摩
我是你的男佣
一周全年无休

让你越过越轻松
情话说太多你嫌恶心又做作
假如说不够
你又嫌我爱不多
到底要我怎么做
拿本说明书给我
我只是你的男佣
不管你站着坐着趴着
我在你左右如果你累了酸了瘫了
我帮你按摩
我做你的男佣
一天到晚上工
让你越过越轻松

不管你醒着睡着梦着
我在你左右
如果你气了哭了闷了
我帮你按摩
我是你的男佣
一周全年无休
让你越过越轻松
常常一一歪歪叽叽喳喳哔哔巴巴
唸个不停就像女王
我也霹雳啪啦被你打个淅哩哗啦
逆来顺受为你投降
不管你站坐趴
我在你左右
如果你累酸瘫
我帮你按摩
我做你的男佣'
一天到晚上工
让你越过越轻松
不管你醒着睡着梦着
我在你左右
如果你气了哭了闷了
我帮你按摩
我是你的男佣一周全年无休
让你越过越轻松

Failure--- emotional day~~

2007-04-09T01:57:00.000-07:00

i think everyone will sometimes ask yourself.. " Am I a Failure??? " I think this question and answer only you yourself know.. To me.. i 110% agree i am one!!! no doubt.. let put it this way.. you can fail your exam, your relationship.. but not your life.. i duno why i have been a failure in my life.. i waste so much time in the past...doing shits here and there.. really regret.. hope i will learn what the definition of " cherish and treasure" by now.. yupz.. today really been a emo day~ for me.. because yesterday went out for my polytechnic class gathering.. real long time nv see you guys.. especially my buddies during that time.. having great time in Kbox.. and great time always pass so fast.. and the photo-taking session after it really make my eyes red.. i really miss the time.. now you all graduate.. i really regret been wasting time in studies and end up repeating.. but i promise to get back what i lost.. and here i hope you guys can have a promising future ahead~~ and please please don't lose contact.. meet up often.. without you guys.. my poly life would have been a piece of shit.. thanks for all the great time we have been through.. (my first failure in life -- keep wasting time and shit in studies

yupz.. mention about brotherhood ties... kind of miss my friends too.. ---E4.. my group of buddy during secondary.. don't misunderstand.. we not duplicate of F4.. E4 to us got a meaning and it means Eternity 4.. 4 of us.. actually should be 5.. but anyway.. we guys have been further apart.. though i been meeting ah Hock.. but others like keep busy of their things.. seldom meet up.. think being adult in exchange of sacrifice friendship is really something not worth it.. sometime i really wana ask you all this question.. "are you all or i mean we all that busy?" anyway is another failure in life..

actually look back.. everyone will think i never been doing good.. or i shouldn't be like this.. if i do this maybe i will be better.. blah blah blah.. coz human are foreva won't be satisfied.. we are greedy animals.. agree?? but now i am regretting.. why i never been spending more time with my family?? be more filial to my parents?? then i spending more time in my relationships.. and all end up to be nothing~~ haiz.. don't whether are they hurt me or i am the one who hurt them.. but relationships.. hard to say right and wrong too..sometimes now.. i still miss my past relationships. like see the photos.. rem how happy we were.. things we share.. even quarrel.. is also a time we been thru~~ at a point of time i thinki should stay single for long but one shouldn't be without love.. no matter of what love isit.. family love.. friends... couple.. we simply cant live without it.. but becoz of love.. make us a failure.. and regret of what we been doing.. to be frank i cant live alone... need a companion.. hope i will be a better man from now.. and realised the true meaning of what it meant to cherish...

everyone at certain point will meet his low point.. jus like share market got up and downs.. life and everything is like maths.. a graph.. no one will always be at his peak.. think postitive and failure just something to block your view.. hope i actually not one~~~

GooD fRiDAY~~

2007-04-07T02:44:00.001-07:00

this is the first time i celebraTe good Friday~~ lolz.. not really celebrate la.. jus going out with friends.. actually i don't even know why there is good friday.. think is doing something with christian one.. but anyway as long as is a public holiday.. who caRES~~

wooh~~ wake up early in the morning and P.H also must work.. wtf!! siaN.. but got extra paid.. compensate the moody side ba.. knowing after work going to drink which can relax my tense mentally make my work time going fast... haha=) a 5 and a half hour of work finally end at 6.20.. super siAnz.. go home had a bath and dress up to meet up my friends.. first time spending nightlife with my poly friend -- ah K... haha.. e one who acc me watch "stomp the yard" one.. think after watching the movie make us itchy le.. ops.. then reach MOS which got free entry.. and go in saw some friends inside.. haha.. know some ppl in my poly who i nv saw b4 also.. lolz.. then know one new friend of ah K.. sheena.. lolz.. hope my cold jokes won't freeze you~~ anyway nice to meet all of them la.. been chatting whole night and little dance.. coz is really too too packed.. mood really fly away le.. damn sianz.. but chat and drink at club also relaxing ba=) anyway think won't go club in shot period le.. sch starting soon le.. and drink will got tummy one.. no no.. and wana wait for one friend who finish exam 2 weeks later.. hope can dance with her.. and not that packed like yesterday.. -_-"

Stomp the Yard~~

2007-04-04T00:34:00.000-07:00

wooh~~ long time never walk into town and cinema le.. thanks for my companion ---> ah K.. haha=) because in blog.. privacy count so won't reveal real name.. erm.. k.. let talk about the movie i watch yesterday.. Stomp the yarD~~ nice movie.. not only the dance impressed me.. most important is the story.. the touching side.. and it really motivate me.. and i know what actually lacking in me~~ and one more moral of the story is cherish~~ that a scene which really cute.. okok.. the male lead -> DeeJay like the female lead who already has a Bf ( a popular guy in UNI as he is rich and "hot" too) but rich guy normally treat their gfs like rubbish... i hope i never interpret wrongly but they are a kind of being too complacent and think is as if their fortune who attract the girls and they won't leave them... i think there a diff between the movie and real life.. if movie all talk about love but real life think gal won simply leave $$ for a poor but dancing good guy... but but... i doesn't mean all the gals u see.. at least in the movie.. the female lead ask Deejay.. "what my fav color" and if the guy truely love you.. you don't have to tell him and he will notice himself.. Deejay answer " your eyeslashes always in green and your ring got a jade on it, i think your fav color is GREEN" ops.. this scene simply wake me up.. yeah.. i agree.. if you realli love the one.. you will notice from head to toes.. because you don't want to miss a thing.. haha.. ok.. stop my nonsense about love.. this movie talk about moving on.. and to work as a team and preserve to get what you wana.. the dance impressive no doubts.. and the determination to be a better man.. (and a very one thing i keep notice is the build of them. wow.. really make me wana train harder.. haiz.. when can i be like them and my sentosa trips.. haiz~~ keep it on ba).. yupz.. is not only a all DANCE movie.. more than it.. but i going to end in cinema.. so i think those who haven catch it.. gona rent the movie... erm.. trust me.. is a movie you wont be wasting time~~ haha.. and after watching it.. make me bit itchy.. haha.. i mean wana club.. ops.. only abit.. long time never had a drink and listen to music at club le.. but see first ba.. friends all busy nowadays.. especially someone is having EXAM soon.. gona wait for e "F" haha.. figuring who is it.. sorry as i said.. privacy.. haha

April fool~~

2007-04-01T11:48:00.003-07:00

think today blog should be a short one... just feel to come in and write something before sleep.. =) today is april 1st... happy april fool day... duno any corners in the world got any suprises out for you all? like proposing.. confession... haha.. i personally feel that april fool can be a day full of suprises.. and is a good chance as the victim will think that you are kidding but in fact is real.. if she cant accept you then just say " ApRil FOOL!!" no hard feeling right.. haha..

anyway so fast e time flies~~~ so fast is april le.. is 1/3 of 2007 gone.. this year really flies fast.. haiz.. wat am i doing last april?? erm.. haha.. tml is april 2nd.. i am celebrating my 1 mth with my ex.. T.. ops.. time really flies..

dun talk about those sad things le.. but today realli realli sad.. working for 8 hours.. killing me.. sit at a place picking up call for 8 hours.. damn bored and dried.. but no choice.. working ma.. and remember my plan i mention at my previous plan.. jus bite and preserve ba.. haha.. tml giving tuition.. hope won't vomit blood.. and here advertise abit ba.. any students wana tuition can intro me?? haha.. erm.. i not kidding.. currently hope to take in primary - lower secondary student.. any subjects. if so can contact me at 81630213. okok.. enough of advertising.. haha.. erm.. anyway here getting bit emotional.. like i said.. time flies fast.. no one know what happens next.. and days after days.. if there someone u love.. voice it out.. who know he/she love u too.. if there someone u loved.. then give all the best and treasured..

bUdGet BuGdEt EVERYTHING BUGDET!!!

2007-03-31T09:37:00.000-07:00

Haiz~~~ super broke recently.. one more weeks and my paid then out.. must really tahan=( but actually still fine cause my friends all busy with own things recently.. then i am single so dun need to stress for another half going out and spend... so single got single advantage in this.. lolz.. recently been coping myself at home.. playing with my dog.. and i not rotting.. continue my physical training.. and TV.. haha.. thou sound very lifeless.. but my dog (benji) should be very happy i got so much time for him.. haha.. kind of getting used to this kind of lifestyle.. very ah pek lifestyle... wahaha but ok la.. been very busy for quite sometime.. now treat it as recharging ba.. school is opening soon.. by that time.. home is e onli place for me to sleep and bath then go out le.. so now stay at home for being budget is not a bad thing overall..

yupz.. today topic is Budget right.. to me.. april realli a new whole thing for me le.. from now on got to be budget le.. think must plan well for every cent spent.. why?? Because my august will be a big plan.. now jus thinking about it is so EXCITED!!! going to TAIWAN~~pls pls.. the lousy president dont do anything stupid during that time.. if not i gona strangled you!! so must try to be budget and save some money for shopping during that time.. and return flight.. hotel accomadation.. all $$ =( so must try not to go movies or dining too often.. and most important is cut down on clubbing... thou might be very xin ku... but thinking of e scenery in taiwan.. is worth it.. jus bite and walk thru..

but next saturday got to spend some $$ le.. omg... must buy a new bed frame and a mattress.. think must spend around 200.. sian one le.. but no choice.. must sleep ma.. i already very budget le.. even go to IKEA to shop for my bed.. pathetic.. but ok for me la.. i am a very easy person.. erm.. but i got alot of plans other than my TAIWAN trip.. wana buy a TV and sound system with DVD one for my new room.. and Jacky cheung Concert.. HAIZ~~~~ but all these need money... is really a Realistic world.. think i must plan well every month to acheive fufill my plans.. hope can fufill all.. but my pathetic paid and so many bills for me to settle every months.. and School fees for new semester.. but i must work hard.. and be budget.. yeahZz.... must preserve and believe myself can do IT!!!

But all this budget lifestyle think will make me be single life prolong -_-" as i now going to pick up more confidence.. but so budget... how can win a gal heart.. ops.. anyway this kinda thing must depend on fate.. recently someone come across.. is she e one?? ops.. kidding.. fate decide~~

HI all=) this will be my new home~

2007-03-28T11:39:00.000-07:00

hi.. this is my first time using this blogger.com for my blog.. as usual this will be a intro of me.. but i think none will interested.. lolz.. coz if u r seeing this mean 2 things. 1. is the one seeing now should be anyhow flip thru here so you can view my profile in friendster to know more about me. 2. you already know me and link here thru my friendster.. so duni much to intro le.. haha=)

okok.. let stop the bullshit.. haiz.. using this blogger really quite troublesome as i don't how to change alot of thing and e.g like putting up song coz i am a considerate guy and hope reader can read my blog while enjoying some smoothie music.. but too bad i am bad in code... and i hope anyone know how to improve on the image, design can leave me a msg and i really hope to learn a thing or 2 to make my blog nicer.. thnx first huhz =p

long time nv write a blog le.. sorry.. but my friendster blog really **ck up.. lot of ppl complain to me that cant link in... my apologise.. and thnx for all ur concern.. i still alive.. and erm.. i being more positive.. wat can i say abt this positive side.. okie.. previous blog written in friendster.. one of e topic is to be single or in relationship.. i think at that point of time i am a lost person... i think i am freak of being lonely that why i keep thinking whether wana to be in a relationship but i think is a selfish thinking because at that point of time i am too lonely till i scare of the feeling... and if i really find myself a girlfriend... no doubt i am a real bastard.. because i wana to get a companion and for e sake of having it and have it.. it is WRONG!!! XXXX NO.. i dunwan to continue my mistake.. and yeapz.. i think i am under-control.. erm.. i finally realise the freedom of being single.. and i am still lonely but i not lost.. what so bad of being lonely.. i got more time to think of wat to do.. ya.. always stay at home really make someone super bored.. but to me is okie.. because currently i still in holiday.. so... is more lonely la.. but school is opening soon.. so i think i will be occuppied with school and works.. and friends too... positive huhz.. keep going ZH!

ya.. school finally open le.. sOrrY.. to myself.. why i so stupid in the past.. i mean to give up my studies for some stupid things... i promise myself nothing is more important than myself.. in future i will put myself in 1st priority.. of coz.. family come first.. ppl passing by me.. and especially relationship.. is not worth it.. now all gone.. but i still pathetic staying back.. so **ck shit.. i responsible and now facing it all alone.. so i really feel promises during rs is lies... jus sweet thing to make someone happy... to me empty promises are nastier than vurlgar languages.. anyway this sem i must work real hard.. and faster end all these shit and walk closer to my dream... yeah.. ok la.. think is enough... England match start.. gotta go.. Take CarE all~~

灰色空间

2009 ---- an unforgettable YEAR~~

dear dear bday=)

another week has gone~~~

days r hard ahead...

monday blues????

drink drank durnk

a brand new start???

tuesday afternoon...

灰色空间

pain pain pain~~~

i am left to rot~~

Zh is a fcuking BASTARD!!!

12 days more to go~~

Goodbye~~ Here I come Singapore!!!

篮球火 aka Hot Shot

PaNic But Eager to IMpreSS

Countdown to my biggest Party~~

Movies movie movies...

dEteST!!!

pre-celebration for 9th months=)

cOme on is 3 more weEks..

10/06/08~~ everything going quite smoothly~~

Nervous, Excited, sCAreD ~~~~~

I am Back AGAIN!!!!

long long time no see~~~

Am i good enough to be by your side??

SweetNeSs fRom tHe Bottom of my heart=)

i am in trouble..

happy?? sad??

EnjoyED yours Young Days!!

Emo =)(=

Crazy ME~~

NeW Start, nEw LIFE!!

sAtuRDay nIght~~

long time no see

Cupid shoot me please=(

waKe up From m DreamzZZ.. and go on fRom There~~

DaRk, Darker and Darkest~~~

SanTiago MuNeZ!!!

walking dayZzzzz

Mood swing day~~

28/6/07

Is A Double "S" day in my Life

=)

I wana get a RESTART

=(

Secret Revealed~~

Long time No See =)))

Disappointing moment~~~

05/05/07

SpiderMan 3

爱得太迟

Are you ready for love??

Sunday=)

MaiD in a RS~~

Failure--- emotional day~~

GooD fRiDAY~~

Stomp the Yard~~

April fool~~

bUdGet BuGdEt EVERYTHING BUGDET!!!

HI all=) this will be my new home~

10/06/08 everything going quite smoothly